i'm drunk so bear with me ehchickety_chiApril 8 2005, 03:21:18 UTC
okay, frequent random (oxy-moron i know) commenter here.
i would just like to say that i for one, really enjoy your entries. they're not your usual 'i love her, she dosen't love me' or 'today i totally went to the store' entries. they make me think. and not enough folks have that sort of ability to write. i commend you sir.
now to personally answer the question at hand in this entry; i know it sounds stupid, but i relate a lot of things in life to my honda. including happiness. and i constantly dream of how i WANT it, but am forced to live with how i can AFFORD it. as we've already discussed/mentioned, money = happiness. so i save save save, and all i have on my mind as i fill out that deposit slip is...honda honda honda. THEN something comes up and i have to divert those funds towards something else. in the current case, moving costs and future rent. it sucks, but i know i HAVE TO (growing up sucks), so what i do is focus on what i will STILL be able to save, and what i can do to save MORE; i.e. second job. and as hard as it currently may be...at least i have a supercharger and complete stand-alone engine management system ALREADY. i've overcome that hill at least, if you will.
so i guess what i'm trying to say here...is to focus on what you have, and what's still possible to attain given the current situation. be strong jigga. you'll always have a second chance at anything in life. whether it be a financial matter, a female, hell...an opportunity in general.
Re: i'm drunk so bear with me ehbiggdaddykaiApril 8 2005, 04:55:26 UTC
thanks for the kind words. i try not to just talk about my day all the time, cuz i rarely do anything of interest to anyone but me anyways. I just try and write down my thoughts if i need the insight of others, or think that my ideas could help or guide someone else.
I understand what you are trying to say but let me counter that with another scenario using your own example. You talk about second chances, but you dont always want a second chance or a substitution. Like lets say that, thru no fault of your own, your honda gets totaled. Say you park on the street and someone drives their navigator over top of it.. its FUBAR'd. You have nothing to show now except the money you get from insurance. Now sure you could go by another car.. another project car.. but you put so much time and love into that first one, you know its not going to be easy. Shouldnt you take that FUBAR'd car and try and make it work again? Isnt there something you should do? You love that car.. it was special to you. Do you want to give up on it and look for a new car just yet?
and for anyone else reading this.. yes some people really do LOVE their cars, so its a very valid metaphor.
Re: i'm drunk so bear with me ehchickety_chiApril 9 2005, 03:40:43 UTC
i would give up hope of ever having a better (or another) one, until the day i see another one that just totally inspires me all over again. i don't necessarily believe in love at first sight, but i do think that you can realize somebody or something is all you've ever wanted within seconds of making eye contact. there's millions of hondas (not to mention..females! ;D)out there, so it'd only be time before another one catches my interest.
but it's not unhealthy to dwell on it if you ask me. because personally i'd like to dwell on what made me happy in the past, than how sad i might be at the moment. which i know...by most peoples standards, THAT's an unhealthy mindsight.
Re: i'm drunk so bear with me ehbiggdaddykaiApril 9 2005, 04:07:49 UTC
Its not that im worried about dwelling, even tho i DO have a tendency to do that. Its just that my entire life whenever something to do with emotion or feeling came out, and that classic "fight or flight" moment comes about ive always chose to run. But this time its different. I cant seem to run the other way, nor do i really want to. I was just wondering if conciously there is a specific dividing point i should be looking for, when to decide that enough is enough, and I should just stop trying. See like i said, i have always ran long before it ever got to that point. I never let myself feel anything... i always broke off and went the other way before i really had the chance to. But i passed that line up a ways back this time, so I'm standing unarmed in unknown territory. Its... unsettling, as i put it before. Its not necessarily bad, then again im not sure if its good yet either. Its hard to explain. Most of the people i talk to regularly on here ive either known for awhile, or connect with in some way. Usually to each in a different way. That is why i posted this hoping that one of these people would have felt or experienced something like I am right now, and have some insight for me. I have gotten some help so far, but still not exactly what i need. I thank all of you for reading and responding tho, its nice to know that some people DO want to help. anyways back to fun with photoshop.
i would just like to say that i for one, really enjoy your entries. they're not your usual 'i love her, she dosen't love me' or 'today i totally went to the store' entries. they make me think. and not enough folks have that sort of ability to write. i commend you sir.
now to personally answer the question at hand in this entry; i know it sounds stupid, but i relate a lot of things in life to my honda. including happiness. and i constantly dream of how i WANT it, but am forced to live with how i can AFFORD it. as we've already discussed/mentioned, money = happiness. so i save save save, and all i have on my mind as i fill out that deposit slip is...honda honda honda. THEN something comes up and i have to divert those funds towards something else. in the current case, moving costs and future rent. it sucks, but i know i HAVE TO (growing up sucks), so what i do is focus on what i will STILL be able to save, and what i can do to save MORE; i.e. second job. and as hard as it currently may be...at least i have a supercharger and complete stand-alone engine management system ALREADY. i've overcome that hill at least, if you will.
so i guess what i'm trying to say here...is to focus on what you have, and what's still possible to attain given the current situation. be strong jigga. you'll always have a second chance at anything in life. whether it be a financial matter, a female, hell...an opportunity in general.
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I understand what you are trying to say but let me counter that with another scenario using your own example. You talk about second chances, but you dont always want a second chance or a substitution. Like lets say that, thru no fault of your own, your honda gets totaled. Say you park on the street and someone drives their navigator over top of it.. its FUBAR'd. You have nothing to show now except the money you get from insurance. Now sure you could go by another car.. another project car.. but you put so much time and love into that first one, you know its not going to be easy. Shouldnt you take that FUBAR'd car and try and make it work again? Isnt there something you should do? You love that car.. it was special to you. Do you want to give up on it and look for a new car just yet?
and for anyone else reading this.. yes some people really do LOVE their cars, so its a very valid metaphor.
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but it's not unhealthy to dwell on it if you ask me. because personally i'd like to dwell on what made me happy in the past, than how sad i might be at the moment. which i know...by most peoples standards, THAT's an unhealthy mindsight.
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