So, Im back in Podunk. Alone. Colin left this morning. My heart feels ripped out of my chest. No one knows the future, but, I have a feeling its really over for us. Ive seen my husband for the very last time. Ive no regrets. I honestly enjoyed my time in England. I wish things could have worked out differently. I love Colin with all my heart. ( Read more... )

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So, the holiday are over. Thank fuckin gawd!!! I survived without a major meltdown of homesickness. This coming weekend (Jan 4 - 6) was supposed to be my weekend off, BUT as the other bar manager stepped on glass last weekend and is now off work for the next 4 weeks, Im workin everyday. Im only workin 3 hours on Sat mornin so I guess that could be ( Read more... )

Yeah, so, its like 10 days til Christmas Eve. Its my first Christmas with my husband, it should be a happy time, right? Why am i feelin more n more depressed everyday? I want to go home. Christmas Eve is a hella party back home. 25 of us crammed into mom's house. 4 generations eating, drinking, playing, laughing...well, you get the idea. This year ( Read more... )