at roughly 1:30pm yesterday, I receive a cell phone call from a line with too many numbers for me to recognize. I pick up, thinking it may be a telemarketer, or a monster, and it's Sam!!!! I was so jazzed yesterday, all day, too much at times that I found my body slightly convulsing, and then that call sent me over the top. I ran out of Becky's ( Read more... )

can't sleep can't sleep can't sleep can't sleep ( Read more... )

my head contains a dull ache ( Read more... )

sam visited yesterday and left this afternoon. I feel like I've been holding my breath the entire time. I haven't felt that real nervousness in a long time. I know I say this all the time, and when I don't I'm crying that I'll be alone forever, but I think I could really like Sam. Well, I do, but more than really like him. If it weren't for ( Read more... )

I had such a funtastic bostonian weekend. a mixed and hurried and champagne-filled new years topped off a refreshing and insightful year. I've never felt as sure and unsure of where my life is headed as I do right now. I manage the confidence that I'm going to do what I love, but there's so much in between right now and twenty years from now. ( Read more... )

do I spend xmas money tomorrow at the Square One mall (H&M...!!) or save it to guarantee rent money for January...? too many choices!

I think that people become too absorbed in how others are living their lives that they forget how to live their own. The value system they possess, morals, ethics and so on. People are obsessed with being right and showing how others are wrong that we lose track of what is important to us. We want to make an impact on the world, yet we forget ( Read more... )

I had so much fun last night. More than I can remember having as a group in a long long time. And it was a sober night! We should do that again!

sometimes I think I'm overly, semi-disgustingly optimistic.but I reconsider and think, who else is going to be if I'm not? It's a beautiful/vicious cycle of believing everything has a reason for it happening and there's no where else to go but up when you're down at the bottom. I read a brochure on laughter healing and comedy as a medical ( Read more... )

I am single once more. I think I'm destined to continually date for a short amount of time. This time it was mutual, at least. Tim and I just came to the conclusion that our lifestyles are very different. we both have different wants and needs that one another canot fulfill at this very time. we are also at different points in our lives. I'm ( Read more... )