I'm watching Maury because I have nothing else to do. it's very funny actually. Typical cheating, lie detector crap. Welcome to your future Kayla.

So, I've been really bored, really amused, really energetic and really fucking sad since "summer" began. I feel like I'm going through some pain right now. I probably am ( Read more... )

I don't know

. . .But I do know that I don't deserve to be called by some bitch on my ex-boyfriends phone for no reason whatsoever.

. . .I do know that I don't deserve to be ignored

. . .and that I don't deserve to be looked down on.

Fuck

I went for a walk this morning, got up at about 6:15. I did some jogging too, but I'm so out of shape that it didn't work out too well. I feel pretty good, but I don't feel like going back to sleep.

-I think this is good as my day is going to get.

Maybe I should be more positive?

Three "B's" and a "A"

Not as bad as I thought,

Kept my grade point average above a 3.0

and I didn't even try hard to do that

. . .Imagine what would happen if I tried. SuperStar

I was stupid for ever getting into this
I am stupid for loving
I do not want to take this anymore
I am fucking pissed
I don't give a shit what might happen
I won't be stupid again

I can't say that I never want to see him again, uh what happened to me???????????????????????????

is exactly how I feel right now.

It seems like I've been crying all day long, but mostly just half the day.

I think I'm going to fail some classes or come close

I am not myself (deja vous)

Someone please save me, I need help

I have a lot of work to do

I suppose it kind of sucks that everyone is going to be gone over the break, but hey at least I have school.

I'm sick of school and my grades are going to show it. It makes me think I should not be so ambitious. But I do want to do good, just not right now and I'm pretty sure my grades are going to show it too. For the first time in my life I feel like having fun and cutting loose and being a rebellious teen, but the problem with that is, that time has ( Read more... )