so i made up this no kissing on the first date/hang out rule about two years ago. said rule was partially enacted so i wouldnt make out w/boys i actually liked the first night we hung out. this makes you seem easy, which can lead a boy into thinking youre just interested in a one night stand. im not like that. it can also make things awkward if ( Read more... )

still no idea on whats slowing turning my stomach into a torture device. tests and tests and blood samples galore. my body is sore and im tired. ill probally be moving out of my apartment to stay w/friends since i cant work as much. im freaking out alot. so if youre my friend, please be my friend right now. i need all the love i can get ( Read more... )

as i was leaving the house i was chased down by two unattended scotty dogs. rat bastards. i hate it when animal owners dont put their pets on leashes. i mean, even worse than that, they were nowhere in site. disgusting. and then i almost hit some kids on my way home from work. dont parents teach their kids to look both ways before running ( Read more... )

boys are lame.

hopefully no more fleas. gross gross. mirabelle was a good kitty in the tub. josephine was a little fiesty. i have bite marks to prove it. but all in all the mission was completed ( Read more... )

so this weekend was kind of crazy. alot went on. but it was all fun. exactly what i needed. and all fun weekend. even better than all night fun night. i cant type now. but ill elaborate later. see ya. xo.

i deleted another boy on myspace. now i suppose i'm on the look out for another boy to break my heart. i heard someone say that every break-up prepares us for divorce. if that's true, by the time i get married i think i'll be more ready than the rest. it's really defeating when you find out even the nice ones are going to let you down. or maybe ( Read more... )

nothing exciting is happening. the increasing temperature is keeping me from the usual. i'm left feeling distant and anxious. more than normal that is ( Read more... )

its past my bed time. but i cant sleep. its too hot and i cant stop crying. i know, right, why this time? its that fucking boy. and now that ive finally stopped crying i cant stop myself from being so pissed off at myself for letting him get me so upset. hes so not worth it. i know that. really. im not even sure that the reasons are even ( Read more... )

its been some time. two break ups and a break down. but im back in the game. better than ever. atleast ill tell myself that for the time being ( Read more... )