it seems like i'm always trying to get rid of exactly what i want..
i deleted another boy on myspace. now i suppose i'm on the look out for another boy to break my heart. i heard someone say that every break-up prepares us for divorce. if that's true, by the time i get married i think i'll be more ready than the rest. it's really defeating when you find out even the nice ones are going to let you down. or maybe i'm just really not worth it. maybe i'm not safe. or maybe i'm too safe. i can't help it that i just want to be normal. what's so bad about that anyway?