Tonight I got a email bashing a friend and I have to say I almost completely lost it. I was ready to walk to the airport buy a plane ticket and fly to where he was just so I could be there for him. Yet I realize. I'm not suppose to know what I know so I have to keep my emotions in check. Me and this guy have had a rough road. I put people before ( Read more... )

First and foremost I'm going to start school if it kills me. I'm going to get my license so I can go visit people I wanna see. I'm not gonna worry about what others think of me anymore I'm going to live my life the way I want to and if others don't like it oh well. This past year taught me something. Life is too short. You have to live the life ( Read more... )

I grew up in a household that was a secretive one. No one spoke of what happened within those walls. If you did you would get punished. I made the mistake of doing that once. Granted I wasn't that punished. Sure I went to bed without a dinner but the thing that got me the most was the way the family looked at me after I spoke up. I was the outkast ( Read more... )

Well its Sunday alone again. I've been in and out of the hospital since last november. Life got interesting there for awhile. My tail bone broke and caused an infection in my blood and bones. Had to go to the hospital with a temp of 104.4 and they sent me home. The doctor I got now has me on a wound vac that sucks out all the infection and dead ( Read more... )

Well I'm feeling better but still running somewhat of fevers. I actually ate something I really wanted last night to bad it was a mistake. I've been sleeping trying to rest as much as possible. Tonight is the first time I fell asleep before 5 in the morning and I woke up at 2. Life sucks at the moment. I just wanna go back to bed. So in about ( Read more... )

Well I turned 23 today. Deb-b was the first one to call. Course she called right at midnight. Life is pretty much the same. I have been sick still. Running fevers but they havent been as bad as the others. My mom aunt and sister are going to get my hair done for my birthday present because I want to have it done for the concert. I still don't know ( Read more... )

Tonight I wonder how a man can choose one child and then turn his back on his other three? How can he want to be in the life of one child and ignores his others. How can a decent man spend time with one of his grandchildren but not want to know the other two. I shouldn't be surprised by this but in the back of my mind I thought he would have ( Read more... )

Tonight one of my favorite movies came on and as usual I started to think. There was a part in the movie where one of the main characters Joe played by Helen Hunt is talking to her aunt. The aunt knows her like the back her hand and knew she was feeling pain. They were talking about her husband who is leaving her for another woman. The aunt says " ( Read more... )

I've been kind of distant lately. I know and I'm sorry. This time of year is hard for me. I start to miss the people who are no longer apart of my life. My grandparents, na na, I hate to admit but at times I even miss having a father. I know I shouldn't but I do. He isn't anything but a dead beat dad but he was the only one I have. I hate him so ( Read more... )

A song I heard tonight reminded me of why I let myself fall in love to begin with. Even though everytime I end up getting my heart broken I know there has to be atleast one man on this planet who won't ever break my heart. A man who doesn't want to be with anyone but me. That isn't too much to ask. Is it? A cousin of mine seems to think I need to ( Read more... )