Another two years went by and I found myself back on this page. I guess I haven't been able to write about my feelings in awhile, sometimes I think the only way I can even acknowledge how I feel is to write about them. I've gotten way too good at covering up my true feelings and I feel like sometimes I am losing pieces of myself. But how can I be ( Read more... )

So. Graduation was today. BS degree and Cum Ladi (is that how you spell it?). I also got an award for being the best CT student (well, the one that shows the most promise I guess you could say? In clinical and in class). I'm proud of myself, I did great. Everyone was telling my parents how great I was and what a nice daughter they rasied, it feels ( Read more... )

havent written in here in ages. let's see for an update ( Read more... )

you think things hit rock bottom, but then there are more awful suprises in store.
no wonder why i harden my emotions so much, it's crazy dealing with this shit.
i don't know how much more i can take before it's a giant slap of reality in my face.
how much worse are things going to get? i don't even want to find out.

oh man. it's already 2008. freaking 2008 ( Read more... )

so things ended friday ( Read more... )

i dont know whats been going on with me but i have no patience this week ( Read more... )

things havent been good with me and nick ( Read more... )

i havent been myself in awhile.
give or take certain times of course.
i'm unhappy. and i don't know why.
this is going to be the third day in a row i cried.

michael fixed my phone!
i love this thing its indestructable!
:) im happy