it's a sad state of affairs when the sound of people laughing makes you angry.  when giggly, smiley, upbeat people enjoying life makes one want to vomit.  envy is the darkest and most dangerous emotion there is.

i hate LJ.  it's frustrating.  it's designed for people with social lives.  it's not journaling in the real sense, which is what i need ( Read more... )

fucking freezing in my room. it's not as cold in the rest of the apartment. must be a demon in here or something. my goddamn CA blood is still used to medium temperatures, not the fucked up extremes of nyc weather...and it's not even that cold at all yet. it's going to be a long winter ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE HALLOWEEN. i hate all holidays really, but especially this one. it's for KIDS, not adults to get stupid and drunk in public. if you are over 18 and still dress up on this lame fucking holiday....GROW THE FUCK UP. STOP. NOW. SAVE US ALL. save all you slutty costumes for your own private twisted indoor life with your trashy frat ( Read more... )

Lydon has become much more wise and a little less caustic over the years (he is 51!), but he never ceases to entertain, then or now. this goes back to 1980 ( Read more... )

this is good stuff. it always puts a smile on my face. it's from the film The Filth And The Fury......enjoy. look how shy siouxsie is. fucking adorable.

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...i wonder why paul cook is being so quiet. he looks really bored, actually.

(Addendum: December 1st 1976, at 6:15 pm. The interview that brought on the phrase "The Filth And The Fury

Went into the Bklyn Guitar Center on my way home today and did the typical messing around without buying anything. I was sooooo tempted though. Played some acoustic beauties. A great sounding Yamaha ($230) and an even richer, fuller sounding Martin ($400). Dammit, it's gonna be one of those two, sooner or later. Maybe i'll even try to bring my ( Read more... )

i don't know what it is with sundays.  they're always lonely, depressive days; full of unwanted self-reflection and painful nostalgia for me.  i usually end up not leaving my room and staring off into space or mindlessly wandering around town.

actually i've been feeling pretty down for awhile.  not much energy to go anywhere or do anything, not ( Read more... )

man, i don't know what's up with me lately.  so freakin' tired.  mentally and physically.  working out usually peps me up, but yesterday i was too tired to even get through a full one.  did two exercises and pooped out, had to leave while i still had the energy.

saw a very funny play last night called "Say Your Prayers, Mug!".  usually campy, over ( Read more... )

Many thanks to girlafraid and neoscribe for their hospitality and great morning cartoon party yesterday! Met many cool people (king_duncan and actress_in_nyc and many others). Lots of food, great 'toons and a wicked game of trivial pursuit.

Also, thanks to girlafraid for the Tylenol PM. It kicked my headache in the balls and beat it over the head with an anvil.....see what cartoons do to the minds ( Read more... )

i think alcohol is bad for me, in any quantity. i went out with a buddy of mine tonight. an actor friend and really great, generous person. we are opposites in many ways but we get along okay. he is outgoing, is very garrulous, good sense of humour, all american good looks, smooth with the ladies, blah, blah, i guess i'm envious. anyway, i ( Read more... )