so things are good. i can't complain. i have to be at school in an hour or so.. for psyc 102 lab.. can't wait til this class is over. i have lots of work to do. i love brian and things are good there. it will be a year soon! yay! i just get irra when i see on the history that he visits an ex's page all the time.. what would be the point of doing ( Read more... )

it's been awhile since i've written here. but i'm so frustrated.. and i hate that brian doesn't help talk me through things.. i know i should be able to make myself feel better..but when i'm quiet it would be nice if he tried to get it out of me, what's wrong.. and maybe he can help make me feel better.. but no.. instead he goes and gets his book ( Read more... )

Is it just me or when you are in love, isn't that person supposed to be your everything?, aren't you supposed to make the other person feel like the most special person in the world? and I think that I would want to the person I Love to know that How much i love them and how special they are to me, and how lucky i am to have found them. I give and ( Read more... )

I'm an idiot. But it is hard to tell why I am acting the way I am. It's not until later that I realize my behavior could be from the pill. I just switched to a new one, and I'm sure it's just as likely to have mood swings on occasion... But i have no justification for chewing out brian the way i did. I feel like an asshole. I don't get it. I don't ( Read more... )

ok so i have been thinking deeply about taking off to southern california again for the summer.. or maybe like amonth of it.. i like getting my music business experience over summers, however this summer i need to take summer school so that like what.. leaves a month? .. i plan on interning at the militia group label.. they have bands like the ( Read more... )

man.. i have my apa style psych paper to write right now.. :( i have a head ache..and too many thoughts circulating in my head. :( . i'm overly emotional from these damn birth control pills and i look forward to when i have time to switch. i'm probably driving brian crazy with my mood swings.. and i am personally tired of experiencing a different ( Read more... )

i got new shoes. i'm stoked. i hunted them down. :) . i'm bummed with school at the moment. :( . . i want to just go on a long walk..and then end the night with painting listening to records. <3 .... i want to scream.

so yesterday... brian and i went to go get our fishes.. :) .. 2 betta.. named patch and gooch. i love them so much.. we went to the capital aquarium downtown..and they have this little river in there..and we fed the fish.. it was so fun and cute.. i miss our fish now.. my first class is cancelled.. and i feel so at home at the apt.. it's nice.. i ( Read more... )

man.. i have a lot of homework to do..and what am i doing.. myspace.. lj updates.. ah! the frustration. anyway. the unique social was fun last night.. i felt like a fat ass.. i didn't intend on eating that much ice cream..and i'm really considering becoming vegan again.. i like living like that. my mom started crying today because she thinks i'm " ( Read more... )

how scary of a lyric for me to use.. (postal service for those who don't know) . Brian moves all the furniture in on saturday.. and we are having my coworkers over for a small get together..after tom's show..and then there's a party.. (and katie !!! you are invited.) ok but anyway it makes me nervous.. at times to think about.. but he says ( Read more... )