my eyes are wet with clarity.
Is it just me or when you are in love, isn't that person supposed to be your everything?, aren't you supposed to make the other person feel like the most special person in the world? and I think that I would want to the person I Love to know that How much i love them and how special they are to me, and how lucky i am to have found them. I give and I give and I give and I've been trying to get to the bottom of why i hate his friends. My eyes are wet with clarity... i feel like I've gotten to the bottom of everything. And I didn't realize he was so blind. Misunderstandings between people can take you off your paths...if it's not brought to each others attention and make you lost. It's crazy. I hated these girls because he treats them like he treats me. It's not bad at all. He's a great friend. I know how he feels about me and I can see it in his eyes. He loves me more than anything and i can tell, he just doesn't show it very well. holding hands, kissing, the physical actions of love are the only thing different from his friends and i. I don't believe that should be the only thing different? am i wrong?I listen to what he says (I know he listens to me too) and i surprise him with little things he's mentioned he likes or wanted, or i do nice gestures, I wouldn't do that for anyone else, thus I'm making him feel special. I do little things to show him how much he means, and he hasn't done anything in return... I've never been in a serious relationship before. I don't know what to expect, or what is normal, I just know what I feel. I felt so lost in my feelings towards his friends, that I think i was just putting them down and overreacting because i'm not treated any different from them. I've known this from the beginning, but thought that the further down the road we get, the more things will change regarding that... but now that we had this talk, he seems to have had an awakening... he's aware of what i'm saying. He grasps it, he sees it, and it makes me feel like I'm not crazy. That what I felt was actually legitimate and not because of birth control pills, or chemical imbalances. I feel like things will be better now.. and he really feels sorry and I can't stop crying. I want to be with him forever, and I actually began to question that. How much hurt could a person take without any change in the behavior? would i really stay around forever?.. those thoughts freaked me out but I was having them, and now I feel like things will be okay. I don't like being single now that I've experienced how great this is.