it's been awhile. a long while. i'm still going to school, i'm almost half way through. i am so happy that i finally found something i love. i've been doing better lately. i'm happier. i finally feel like i'm going somewhere in life. everything is falling in place. for once in my life i feel confident that i can do something and be good at it. i've ( Read more... )

It has been awhile since i've updated. i've just been going to school, hanging out with some friends, playing racquet ball, and that's about it. as i was looking at my user info i noticed that before this one i had 99 entries. so i thought i should update to break the 100 mark. i had a livejournal before this one, and on that one i had 190. i had ( Read more... )

in an unstable state i thought about suicide ( Read more... )

i'm not much of one for those testy thingy-doodles, but everyone has their weak moments, and i've given in to temptation and taken a few. i'm not going to bother with those silly (and really space occupying) pictures, but i am going to tell you my results, and my take on them. sorry for the inconvience, of you reading this rather pointless journal ( Read more... )

i have good days, and i have bad days... yesterday, not so good ( Read more... )

tonight i had a life or death situation... at least in my opinion ( Read more... )

Does anyone ever "have it all"? what does that phrase mean exactly? does having it all mean it looks good to others, or does that mean you have everything you could ever want. I've heard other say that someone has it all, but that's only their opinion. from the outside it may look like someone has a wonderful life, a wonderful job, and a wonderful ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in about 2 weeks, due to the lack of interesting happenings. thats the thing about small towns, nothing to do, no new (interesting) people to see... it's all just blah ( Read more... )

i'm in an odd mood tonight, and i have two things to talk about that really don't go together. one is a rather cruel and mean thing to say and do (in most people's opinion anyway), and the other is a positive thing (at least to me ( Read more... )

tonight i was walking through the house in complete darkness and it made me realize how much has changed. i use to be afraid of the dark, and wouldn't dare walk through the house without a light on. it made me wonder when i stopped being afraid. i don't remember a turning point where i was no longer afraid, it just kind of happened. i know that ( Read more... )