Suicidal thoughts
in an unstable state i thought about suicide.
not actually doing it just how i would do it.
i wasn't unstable enough to actually take the razor across my skin but i was unstable enough to consider it.
how would it feel and how fast the blood would rush?
would it be quick or would it take time?
how much would it hurt...or would it be painless?
if i took the razor down my wrist how would it change anything?
would the world be better or would it be worse?
would anyone be truely sad and would anyone cry?
should i do it in the tub or should i do it in my bed?
should i do it alone or let someone watch?
would i close my eyes or would i watch the blood pour?
would tears fall down my cheeks or would i feel relieved?
which wrist should i choose...the right or the left?
how long would the wound be... and how deep would it go?
how far down my arm could i go before i had second thoughts?
what if i lived and what if i died?
these are all thoughts i have had before, i'll admit... but i can honestly say i would never kill myself. i'm too much a wuss. i kinda got bored actually, so i just started typing. i don't want anyone to think i'm suicidal or anything. because i'm not. but the question i pose for you is:
if you WERE going to commit suicide, how would you do it, and why choose that method?
not actually doing it just how i would do it.
i wasn't unstable enough to actually take the razor across my skin but i was unstable enough to consider it.
how would it feel and how fast the blood would rush?
would it be quick or would it take time?
how much would it hurt...or would it be painless?
if i took the razor down my wrist how would it change anything?
would the world be better or would it be worse?
would anyone be truely sad and would anyone cry?
should i do it in the tub or should i do it in my bed?
should i do it alone or let someone watch?
would i close my eyes or would i watch the blood pour?
would tears fall down my cheeks or would i feel relieved?
which wrist should i choose...the right or the left?
how long would the wound be... and how deep would it go?
how far down my arm could i go before i had second thoughts?
what if i lived and what if i died?
these are all thoughts i have had before, i'll admit... but i can honestly say i would never kill myself. i'm too much a wuss. i kinda got bored actually, so i just started typing. i don't want anyone to think i'm suicidal or anything. because i'm not. but the question i pose for you is:
if you WERE going to commit suicide, how would you do it, and why choose that method?