I just got very exciting news that I will be living in Stevenson for school next semester. It is great. I think that it is goign to be a good day now despite all the other drama going on in the world. More later!!!!

People really do suck right now. So I am minding me own buisness and I get told that I need to learn how to deal. What the hell is up with that. At this point if I had the nerve to say what I wanted to you this is how it would go ( Read more... )

Not in the since of an actually house,but in the since of me and my life. I have been so down and depressed lately that I have let it control me and who I am. I need to stop nad get rid of all those things that are making me that way even if I am not sure I want to. I was watching a show today and this guy wanted to be with this girl really bad but ( Read more... )

After the past few days being so confusing and hard to deal with I have come to the conclusion that things are going to get better and that I need to take control of that issue. It is time that I decide what is good for me and let go of all that I am holding on to. When you realize that you are holding on to a broken piece of glass and it begins ( Read more... )

I can not believe how people can change their tune so fast. It amazes me to see that you can be worth something to someone one day but in the blink of an eye you are all of a sudden nothing. Do people not believe in respect for each other anymore. I mean seriously. After all the tears and wondering what if I sit here and think what if i just moved ( Read more... )

The past 24 hours have been really hard for me. Im not sure if its all the talk about me leaving that has me upset or the fact that I made the decison not to call him or text him or email him. I think that it was a good decison but then again I am a mess. It is unbelievable that a person can have that much control over another persons life. I ( Read more... )

As I have sat here and cried most of the night i think that I have come to realize that it is really not meant to be. No matter how many tears I cry or how many days I dont eat its just not going to solve anything at this point in my life. I dont think that I realized until today how completely lost I feel right now and how I cant do this. I feel ( Read more... )

I had a conversation today with a girl at work about everything that is going on with me and she said that her daughter went through the same thing. I was telling her how I felt like I had to hold on for right now because I really did not think that it was ok to let go yet. She reminded me of something, he is the one that wanted this and it was ( Read more... )

Where to start. I am not even sure where to start this entry at other then to say I feel as though I have pieces missing in my life after this eventful weekend. Not only did we spend almost the whole weekend together it was painfully obvious that neither one of us truly want it to be over but there is too much other garbage in our lives that keep ( Read more... )

I am sitting here thinking about all that has happened the past few days and I am wondering why on earth I would put myself in that position. I am much smarter then that but I guess when you really want something you go all out to get it even if it means that you might fail. I think that I can say that I have failed on my part so its time to just ( Read more... )