I'm fucking tired of being second best.

Cigarettes and lonely nights
My stomach burns with butterflies
This emptiness feels like a midnight city sky
I just want to feel your skin
Trace every line and back again
And breath in your every breath just like it was my own

I'm missing you tonight
and every second cuts just like a knife
I'm missing you tonight

Cigarettes and lonely nights
The ( Read more... )

Your name is everywhere.

Go on and tear this all apart.
Make sure to finish what you start.
Scratch the surface until it bleeds, then repeat.
Wear your tourniquet so thin that you will surely bleed again.
Tell me, what is it you've gained? Nothing.
Why can't you just move on?
And forget about the things that cannot be undone.
You can stop blaming yourself.
But you cannot ( Read more... )

So.  I have so much to say, but don't really know how to put it into words...I was hoping once i started typing my fingers would just keep moving.  It's amazing how people change.  I'm not talking about anyone in particular, just everybody.  Everybody has changed.  And yes, change is a part of life, and is inevitable, i know.  Someone once said, " ( Read more... )

AHH.

I need to get out of this house.

Bowling tomorrow night?
Everybody?
Atleast just show up there
and we can pick somewhere
else to go and hang out.
Go to the Variety Show and
then to the bowling alley.
I think it'd be nice to see
people. I miss a lot of you.
♥

I have a new eljay.
I don't know if that means
I wont be updating this one
any more. I might.

strike_me_lover

Add me? ♥

Oh, and in case I don't see ya: Good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
( I must apologize... )

I've never meant this more...

FUCK YOU.

Last night, my mother and i got into the biggest argument ever. I had never been that enraged before. It took incredible amounts of force for me not to say "Fuck off." My dad is in Puerto Rico and still manages to piss me off in ways i never thought possible. I cried a lot last night out of anger, not sadness. And goddamnit i hate that. It ( Read more... )