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Tonight I might have had the most creatively disturbing dream one could ever had. In my head was a women with a voice, strong, like Alanis was singing a song about a young woman who had ran from her past to grow up to be so much more than what life she could have. And the images were from my childhood to adulthood. My own personal dreamed music ( Read more... )

Why is it so hard to smile sometimes? So they say Dysthymia is my curse. I thought by now I'd be able to shake it. After what... 20 years? Nobody wants to know a 'sad' person. I'm trying to be happy. I've wrapped myself up in getting this business started, cooking healthful food, finding different massage modalities to practice, reading, and ( Read more... )

This is what of the few places I have left that I can still talk about anything and everything that is going on in my life. Very few people know about this place, and I like that it's still open to the public. If there were no chance of anyone happening upon my little piece of privacy I would feel weird. Like I was writing to myself ( Read more... )

So me, the boy, and his boy were walking around Zona Rosa this weekend. When we were exiting Barnes and Nobel, the little one said "You're the best step mom EVER!" Put the emphasis on step mom for a minute. Not only are those at work treating us like we're married, but now his son also is nudging in that direction. Robert even told me he didn't put ( Read more... )

I'm so frustrated right now!! As of tomorrow, I will have been sick for two weeks. It got really bad one week ago today. At first I thought maybe it was bronchitis, and when I went to my doctor on Monday, she said I should stick it out a few more days. I went back today, though it was the other doctor, because my right ankle is swollen on the top ( Read more... )

I am not sleeping now. I rereadin whawt I wrote. I still drunk. I miss him. he says we will go out again. I hopes so. Issa ply loaulx ly H e is eating bag of empoty foood. I wonder why. I wonder whyI think of him and wonder hwy it would be so great to have a man to tak e care or m.e he want's a 50000 daolr arecade came. he sayus he paidd 400, ( Read more... )

If I were to be drunk and to write myself. I would tell msyelf whohow much I want to thorw up rgihtnotw and hownot cool it is. I would tell mys elf ta=Eugene wasn't was the goodest to get drunk wtih And I woudl woudlner ahy I would drink so muhc more oncs I gote home. prtty is looking at me, wondirging why I'ma drunk . I woncer myseld. I wtook a ( Read more... )

Damnit, Eugene! I want to be sound asleep right now, as I need to be awake in three hours. Because of you, because of our talks, I can't. You see, I'm a healer. I can say that it helps you, and that's great. However, seeing you EVERY-SINGLE-DAY and taking your stress upon myself has starting to effect my sleep. I dream mostly in conversation. When ( Read more... )

Do you ever if what you do to make yourself fail is some sort of self punishment? Seriously, why do I eat an entire bag of M&Ms that I don't really want, just because they're there? And why can't I put them down? I eat them like I'm starving, just stuffing my face, almost to the point where there really is no control ( Read more... )