timmy's working on a car w/ his daddy, and chris is trying to tell me he loves me, and we're still best friends even though we're broken up.. if he loved me so much he shouldn't have broken up w/ me, but he expects me to be fine and honkey dory. Its only the third time he's done this to me, i should be used to it right? i want the soundtrack to ( Read more... )

i am worthless. i am a fuck up. i have no right to be alive. i have no purpose. i cause pain. i am lonely. i am crying tears of anguish. i am hurting. i am lost. i am alone. i am quiet. i need help. i need love. i need him. i need laughter. i need friendship. the tears won't stop falling and i know why but i don't know how to fix it. i need to fix ( Read more... )

everything's hitting the fan... i never knew horoscopes were THAT true, but apparently they are.. and now i'm fucked. everything's spiraling downward and out of control and i don't know what to do w/ myself... i just wish it would end, be all better like it was. when we could smile and tell each other we loved them, and meant it and when we weren't ( Read more... )

Argh the annoyance of the holidays has begun... tho last night at tim's was awesomeness... every last bit. who cares if someone gets mad that i'm out all night, I DO WHAT I WANT!!! don't know who originally said that... but yea squirrel on crack-ism... Which gives tim's family the utmost amusement, but hey, they're the ones w/ the obsession over ( Read more... )

meh i'm really bored yet i really don't feel like doing anything.. what i need is a f'n tv in my room! Timmy comes home tommorow Yay!!! my nails are getting long (for me)and it feels weird to type now.... but i don't want to cut them : / And i have cuts on my hands from tims lethal presents... damn tape... umm other randomness sally's at noon sat. ( Read more... )

I hate ppl, they're so annoying and conving and bitchy and twofaced and some are insecure and i can't help be sad because of them, or they are just plain stupid or ignorant. some ppl it seems live just to make ur life hell, and those are the ppl you find yourself unfortunately addicted to, for no apparent reason, yet you can't seem to tell yourself ( Read more... )

If it wasn't enough that i was sick all yesturday morning, and i had to pretty much babysit the baby from hell last night by myself... chris' car got egged, and today i still feel pretty "...." I don't know if i want to go to steve's tonite. I'd prolly have fun, and since i'd be driving myself, i could leave whenever i want, but meh.. we'll see. ( Read more... )

YYAAAYYYY!!!!!!! I finally got my car insurance today... for cheaper than i thought... cooley beans. TIMMY is sick : / i hate it when he's sick, which seems lately more often then not.... And he missed another day of school, which i can tell right now isn't going to put him in a good position with the school..... Argh!! but yeah Danny's still sick ( Read more... )

ThIs SuCkS i"M sTiLl FuDgInG bOrEd!!!! ok enough of that ( Read more... )

OMFG i am bored as hell and waiting for the insurance guy to call me back... fun fun. then maybe madre will get off my espalda... Oh note to self Ruby is RETARDED... yeah anyway apparently i'm supposed to go Jan 6th for registration shit at parkside... i am so excited...!!!! not... but yeah... So danny might have Ecoli i guess, and everyone pretty ( Read more... )