FUCKKKK ALL OF YOU. and i mean that in the nicest way possible. BE HAPPY. DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT. FUCK EVERYONE ELSE. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT ANYONE ELSE WILL SAY OR THINK. i've learned to stop worrying about other people a longg time ago. i only have enough energy to take care of myself ( Read more... )

fourth of july was horrible. me and christian got in a fight, he said to me "you don't love him like you did me, you never will." and when you said it i thought.. hm, he might be right. ugh, christian christian christian. he knows exactly how to make me feel like complete shit. and it never fails. if he wants to, he can make me want to die. and he ( Read more... )

i rarely update in this journal anymore, i don't know what happened

i feel abandoned, yet i feel free at the same time.
i'm trying to use this alone time to find myself and try to figure out what i really want and what is really important to me. i don't need you, but at the same time i don't know what i'd do without you.

a catch 22. i don't really ( Read more... )

i have nothing to update about!

well, i actually i have lots to update about i just don't feel like it except things are okay and school is school and life and is life and everyone is getting older. birthdays here and there, etc.

i don't know i don't know i don't know!

why does everyone always push me away? i need to stop acting like i don't care. because i do care, i care more than you will ever know. i'm so sick of being the one that is always in a bad mood and that brings people down. i'm sick of people talking about the old me and the new me. it's just me. i feel like a crazy person. no one sees how hard i am ( Read more... )

last night / this morning was completely insane. so random and completely insane.  i woke up with the words "get money" written on my stomach, i've got a rugburn on my elbow, $30 missing from my wallet, and a ridculous hangover.

regardless, last night was amazing! haha.

Megan ( Read more... )

i went to mariah's house last night. definitely had a good time. learned a new drinking game, had some tequila, chugged some beers. i slept over her house then left for gainsville this morning. definitely had a bad hangover. i threw up at burger king ( Read more... )

i feel better, but it is only a fake kind of better, the kind of better where you focus on one thing that you are really looking forward to and put all of your energy and thought into it so there is little time to think of much else. i can't keep walking away from everything i have to say, and i can't keep pretending i don't have to say the things ( Read more... )

what has been going on? nothing really. nothing really at all. lately ive been smoking more than necessary and its not good. but anyway, i went to a party in lake worth saturday night. im not sure how i did it, but i gave two people rides and still made it home without being too out of control. but before that i couldnt find my keys and turns out ( Read more... )