Too many sleepless nights ( Read more... )

Have you changed?

Is 5 years a long time?

Body: 5 YEARS AG0.....

How old were you?: 13
Where did you go to school?: Darmstadt Middle School
Where did you work? morning paper route
Where did you live? Germany
Where did you hang out? Toria's or the play ground or downdown germany
How was your hair style?: shoulder length bundle of gross hair (dyed and permed ( Read more... )

Its almost one in the morning so that would be why i feel so down.  I can't shake this feeling in the pit of my stomach that comthing is gonna change and not for the better.  I don't know why and i don't know what but it scares me.  Of course i cant tell anyone this or they will just think i'm weird.  Which btw, i am of course but i don't know who ( Read more... )

I"m home, unfortunetly.  I wish with all my heart i was back West with friends and family.  I left my brother in the MTC, training to go to Thailand to teach everyone about God.  He was SO ready to go.  Anyways, we had the greatest time in Idaho.  I think i was mosre mature than last time i visited so i was treated differently and not like a little ( Read more... )

Comin back to VA on Thurday!!!  I absolutely don't want to at all.  When i think of all i am leaving behind here in Utah and Idaho, i wonder what on earth made me want to stay in virgnia for school.  besides the fact that the school is great, and a bunch of friends are there, there is absolutely no reason i want to go back.  If there was any way i ( Read more... )

I've decided that i don't want to go home.  I hate it.... i want to stay with family who love me and accept me for who i am, not surrounded by a munch of people who claim to be my best friends, then turn around and never talk to me anymore.  I miss being hugged and kissed  and teased by my uncles who have nothing better to do than tell me that i'm ( Read more... )

Some thing are better left unwritten but i feel that i should write this only to free myself of the heartache that i have builtup for myself.  These past two months i believe i have made a complete fool out of myself by trying to create a relationship with a dear friend.  I know it was stupid and i regret it now.  I only hope i havn't ruined our ( Read more... )

You'll Think of Me.....

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing ( Read more... )

2. Were you named after anyone? my great-great-great aunt
3. Which finger is your favorite? pinky because it's so cute
4. Have you ever sang into a hairbrush? heck yeah all the time 
5. When did you last cry? ummm... last night 
6. Do you like your handwriting? its ok
7. What is your favorite lunch meat? chicken breast
8. Any bad habits? biting my ( Read more... )

I consider myself to be the type of person to keep my feelings to myself. I don't know why, but i have a hard time expressing what i am feeling to anybody. I mean, i can tell just about anyone when i'm mad at them but i think that i feel that showing people that i am sad or upset or in love, is a sign of weakness and i can't do that. i've been ( Read more... )