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I've decided that i don't want to go home.  I hate it.... i want to stay with family who love me and accept me for who i am, not surrounded by a munch of people who claim to be my best friends, then turn around and never talk to me anymore.  I miss being hugged and kissed  and teased by my uncles who have nothing better to do than tell me that i'm beautiful.  I've never felt so loved in my life.  My uncle was looking at my year book and kept telling me that i'm the most beautiful girl in the whole school... lol its not true but i'm glad he said it.  Then he left me the sweetest voicemessage on my phone... God i'm gonna miss him.  He's gonna come out and visit me when he saves up enough money (lol he said when he saved up enough of his money and gets rid of his girlfriends that take up so much of it).  he made straw berry delight then caught me sneaking some out of the big bowl.. so he gave me his bowl of it.  Lol i got a picture with him in  a very embarrassing arpron but he wore it with pride.  Man, i miss him already and i only said goodbye last night
I"m gonna miss all my family but mostly my grandparents because they are so special and they love me so much.  I wish i never had to leave them but i know that i hafta go out and do my own thing but its still hard when you hafta be the outsider in your own family.  I hate visiting family once every three years then all my little cousins are scared of me because they don't remeber me from the last time i visited,  i hate it so much... thats why i don't want to go home, because i'm scared that my family will sforget about me.  But i know htye won't... because they love  me.  But still.....