Tell me I'm not crazy.

I'll believe you.

Whoever you are.

You're holding my sanity in your hands.

Crush it if you will.

But tell me I'm not crazy.

And I'll believe you.

Peace out.

i've been wanting to burn so damn much lately, i finally gave in. yeah, in a way, i thought it through...i bought a lighter the other day. i don't know why...i knew i would be even more tempted than i already was. but i kept watching the flame and that seemed to be enough to feed that insatiable need. then i hit the serious spike of depression and ( Read more... )

as happy as i was with my apparent loss of 1 lb, i failed to stick to my detox diet today. i was on the right track earlier with the Lightlife Smart Bacon and some Wheat Thins after 20 minutes of some advance yoga, but then it all fell apart (what doesn't eventually in my life?) when i started that random snacking that i tend to do once i run out ( Read more... )

...and the link doesn't work...sigh...that was disappointing. oh well... maybe i need to get some sleep

if i could, that is...there are WAYYY to many thoughts racing at a 100 mph (161 km for my metric-using friends) for me to sleep...

maybe i will just write awhile... or watch the cats go crazy. sigh...

Peace out.

i was planning on taking my daughter to school today (there is no bussing from that school to where we live), but i was pretty drowsy (i took 3 - 50 mg Trazodone last night) and something i ate yesterday (i was a major piggy) didn't sit well with me this morning. i had diarrhea, chills, nausea...and this pain i haven't experience since PMS as a ( Read more... )

i used to need an addiction. it occupied the dead space in my day. i tried alcohol. i tried cigarettes. alcohol (unless mixed to the point that it is less alcohol and more flavorful drink) just didn't cut it anymore. except 151, which pleased whether mixed or straight. could be because by the time you swallow the 3rd glass, what exactly are you ( Read more... )

If keeping busy is the cure-all to bipolar, then dammit, I am cured. Or something... Getting involved with the PTA (President, Secretary, & Treasurer--because I'm all-purpose like that, lol) and volunteering in my daughter's Kindergarten class has almost completely absorbed my life because we tend to obsess. Well, I do anyhow and once the obsessing ( Read more... )

...am i gonna post today? i love journaling. i even do it randomly with paper and pen (ya know, those tools of yesteryear). but half the thoughts that come meandering out of my skull only seem to make sense to me or maybe i am just not okay with being public, even if it is in the rather ambiguous world of the Web. i am just a kaleidoscope of ( Read more... )

welcome to my world. there are happy clouds in it and voices chanting things from another plane of existence. Enjoy!