( This is not real. )

There are more developments on the William front, but I've decided my journal is too cluttered with him right now, so they can wait. Hell, with all the ups and downs of this damn thing, it might just change tomorrow ( Read more... )

I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory today. I enjoyed it a lot, although I thought Depp's portrayal was a little too Michael Jackson for my taste. Gene Wilder wins ( Read more... )

he messaged me

wIllIam191919 (2:36:25 PM): hey alex
aspats83 (2:36:42 PM): hey
wIllIam191919 (2:38:18 PM): it hit me
wIllIam191919 (2:38:23 PM): just so you know
wIllIam191919 (2:38:39 PM): i'm so sorry things happened like this
wIllIam191919 (2:38:51 PM): you really don't deserve this
aspats83 (2:39:07 PM): I don't really know what to say. I'm ( Read more... )

What has it been, two days since we "got back together?" Well, said status has been reversed. A-fucking-gain.

More is behind the cut. I dissolve into a whirl in here and I'm not sure I said things in the way I mean them, so take things with a grain of salt or something.
( my life on display )

In recent days I went back through all my old journal entries and tagged them. It made me slightly moody...going through all my ups and downs and boy issues. So on our daily phone call Wednesday night I mention this to William, telling him after reading about the Shelby breakup again I was a little sensitive to being used and strung along as ( Read more... )

William just left. He came up Thursday and we had a great weekend. Things aren't too much more resolved than they were before and there were more than one long teary talks, but I guess it's a little better than before (at least I understand some things better and feel more armed). I'm going down to see him The Arkansas Repertory Theatre Summer ( Read more... )

Mom and Steve got married today. It's was lovely and perfect and wonderful. I danced and danced at the reception.
I'm so tired right now, I may say more later.

I'm off to hang out with the wonderful nikloo on her 23rd birthday! *Shake ( Read more... )

I wore hot pink fishnets under my pinstriped pants today. They left imprints in my legs so I'm patterned now. It kind of feels cool to rub my hands over it and feel the grooves. It would probably feel cooler if I had shaved today ( Read more... )

After reading my last post and finding that I would be at home, William called me and we talked for a few hours. So, for now anyway, William and I have upgraded from "broken up" to "on break." And despite my selfish desires to get back with him, I really think all this is for the best. He needs time, and I suppose I wouldn't be injured by time ( Read more... )