I don't know why but I feel like I need to keep writing and never stop (well, in this case, typing). The saying goes, "Never live your life with regrets." but I seem to be having nothing but regret lately. Regret from...not caring enough, caring too much, why didn't I try harder? Or why can't you let go? I dunno, I wish I could use traction on my ( Read more... )

"The man who has the knowledge of when and how he's going to die but still goes ahead with it...isn't that the type of person we want to keep around?"

That was a quote from Stranger than Fiction. I think I got the gist of it even if it's not verbatim.

I've been raised my whole life to be honest and true. Yes, I have had some secrets in life, but who ( Read more... )

Going to Stateline with Alec, Ali and Sally was pretty fun. It's a bummer I'm not 21 though. I would've torn those tables a new asshole ( Read more... )

I went to Yule's party and it was really fun. I got a chance to actually bust out my suit that I haven't worn since probably my last piano recital. And man, did I look GOOD. There were a lot of hot chicks and I let one of them borrow my jacket outside cause it was cold. I'm so sweet aren't I ( Read more... )

Just when I thought everything would stabilize, I run into tonight. Toga party. Rick's house. Thought everything was gonna be cool. Was it? Yeah, to a point. Then my stupid ass self gets all not-feeling-good-enough for anything and leaves. How is it possible a dude doesn't get anything when the girl/guy ratio is like...3 to 1. Is that even possible ( Read more... )

I've been noticing this more recently in the past couple of days. I'll be hanging out with some friends, and then when I start talking about my meds, they just automatically get quiet. I know they heard me, I just see this look in their face that says, "I'm just gonna pretend like I didn't hear you." If you don't want me to talk about it, then don' ( Read more... )

So my ex texted me again. After I told her to leave me alone. How are you supposed to get through to someone that you don't want them to be in your life? It's not that hard of a concept. Now I'm all pissed off and brooding about shit ( Read more... )

Tonight was a bad night. I got to see Kris and Olga though, so that was really nice. And Andy too. Seems like everyone's going through problems though ( Read more... )

So the aderall is helping me focus but it's making me crash hardcore. Just like when I did speed. Except this time it's worse because I'm basically taking legal speed every day, whereas when I was doing illegal speed it was every two weeks. Same feelings, same come down. So it's making me go crazy faster ( Read more... )

So tonight's the big night. Wrath of the Lich King bitches! Am I going to the midnight release? You bet your ass I am.

Today started off pretty nicely. The medication helped me keep focused and I didn't feel like there was some fog obscuring my thinking process. I'm just not looking forward to when the medication wears off and I start feeling like I ( Read more... )