If I survive this year, this should be the year that defines my future.  I am ready and emotionally exhausted at the same time.  I hate the isolation...seriously, I can totally relate to the Shining.  I am not in college (grad school is different), but I am not in the working world.  I am dating at a time when most people are in stable ( Read more... )

It's been a long time old friend...time to start writing.

I never finished my list....

• 1991 Alive by Pearl Jam
• 1992 Nothing Else Matters by Metallica, Sins of our Fathers by Course of Empire and Bloodletting by Concrete Blonde. The early 90s was my flirtation with goth. I didn't like the conformity of the dress, but the dark music stylings definitely energized me. What can I say about the next seven years ( Read more... )

...I've come to talk to you again.

I needed an outlet again for my thoughts. This semester has gone well at school, but I find myself more and more isolated by my age and schedule. Friends my own age are all working and my classmates are generally 17 years younger than me. My number one emotional outlet has been Tala from our D&D group..which ( Read more... )

Song: Waiting for the Worms
Band: Pink Floyd

I am definitely cut from a different cloth than the rest of my family. Not sure what that means...I just know I live most of my life in my head and can't seem to get it out...all the thoughts and feelings. I did buy a book of sketching..perhaps in pictures.

The Music of My Life:

• 1970 Sid and Marty Krofft The Bugaloos: This is sort of a generic entry for Sid and Marty and all the insidious songs they crammed into my brain
• 1971 Emerson Lake and Palmer Lucky Man: Again, one of those songs that is way more important in my later life
• 1972 America Sandman: More people seem to prefer Horse with No Name, but ( Read more... )

What do I want? I have no idea, but I know I want to scream…over and over and over. I want to scream and yell and rail until my lungs feel like they want to burst. I think that might be a good place to start.

I know that I am changing...for the worse and possibly for the better, though I wish I knew how much my previous choices would weigh around ( Read more... )

To those we have lost
To those who we love
To those who just survive

Another year has come and gone
So I hope this year finds you better than the last
May love fill your hearts
May sadness be fleeting
May wonder fill your life in abundance

Blessings of the Sun (Son) upon you.

The lack of testosterone is getting to be a pain in the ass. I feel...depressed most of the time, but I also feel...alive. I love school...but I feel detached. It is something I don't know how to address. Withdrawing from people is not a good thing ( Read more... )

A paraphrased quote from Edgar Allen Poe.

I am sure every writer has the story...our characters and the lives they lead. We are the gods of their fate, the masters of their strings. They act in ways we demand of them...and then we think about who pulls our strings and the life that we lead. I explored it in poetry a long time ago when I had a better ( Read more... )