I have always wondered if those whom I loved, ever loved me. 
& I've wondered what they would say if I told them? Chances are, I would have wasted my breath.
But have you ever wondered this? Wondered if those you loved, loved you back? 
Sometimes, I wish I could talk to them about it. Rejection is not my strong suit. 

It's one of those nights where I would rather be laying next to you. Smiling and laughing.
Intertwining fingers, and sharing forehead kisses.
Because we are 'us'. (& I wouldn' thave it any other way).
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 When I think about you, I smile ear to ear in the most painful, yet, satisfying smile. 

Happy Christmas!

I spent the evening running around places. Ley's, Keshia's and then to Kyle's grandparent's. Then I spent the night sitting here at work bored out of my tree. Attempted to bake date squares and hoping they are alright. They are for my grandmother for Christmas as she requested them. I hope she likes them.

Ley gave me a card with a ( Read more... )

• I'm not a stuttering idiot anymore when I see him (well, not a bad one anyways).
• I do have a steady job now (guaranteed 40hrs for two weeks), it's a start! 
• I gave Kyle his anniversary gift yesterday (silver guitar pick necklace); I think he liked it (forgot to take a picture, I'm sorry).
• I have all my Christmas gift purchased (exceptions are Secret ( Read more... )

 Broken heart?
you gave me one, & you don't even realize it.

I just can't compete & those feelings hit me like a ton of bricks ( Read more... )

Stolen from Ley.

Proof I'm still alive: a meme.
1. Go to Google and type, "You know you're from (your city or state) when..."
2. Cut and paste the list.
3. Bold the items that apply to you.

( Random foolishness. )

This has been a tiring semester. 
Long. Full of work. & I am still not done.
The best friend cycling through bi-polar episodes, just to have the 'new' doctor indecisive. Wants her to develop patterns before diagnosing her as bipolar - despite showing all signs of the disorder. It's rather frustrating.

but I learned.
I learned that I need to stop, step ( Read more... )

I used to come here when things were wrong. I used to log on and vent away. It reminds me of being a teenager. It reminds me of what I used to be and when I come here it reminds me that maybe I haven't exactly grown that much. I am not saying that I haven't grown, because I have. It's just when I come here it's to feed that side of my mind that I ( Read more... )