When you mention someone in an LJ post, sometimes their settings mean they find out quickly. And so they look, and sometimes will comment right away. (And that is an icon to break any D/D fan's heart.)
You have done more than give birth. You're raising a child and ensuring a good education is there for the taking. You're seeking to be a role model. You took a risk and posted fanfiction. You PM'd me to ask about my moving here. You're a friend that I don't yet know well enough to have random gigglefests with. (Although hezikiah and I got to that level pretty quickly, so there's a good precedent.)
I was in a depressed state a decade ago. I pulled through. In light of... a certain well-publicized death, I remind you that there are ways to get help and that there are reasons to carry on. One of them is to get to know a new friend.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Take care. We can always just not take any pictures. :)
I feel like your icon a lot of the time, truthfully. I want to escape. I didn't realize that the settings did that. I may have to mess with mine. Thank you so much for EVERYTHING you said. I'm sorry. I hope you didn't feel bad because I posted that. I just can't help how I feel sometimes. The depression has been an ongoing issue since I was a teen, and I think it's because of situations I've been in, how I grew up, and how I've spent the last 10 years of my life. So... I apologize. I hope you don't think let of me. I am very much looking forward to tonight! *hugs* I know that I'm excited at the prospect of having a friend (as sad as that sounds lol)
It encapsulates the things I did that weren't so wise, and all the things that were. It's from the Season 6 opener of Law & Order: Criminal Intent
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"I gave birth" doesn't look a lot when you write it down, but it is far more than the sum of three words; and if men knew what it is like to go through that, you'd have got all the bravery medals possible. My sons have saved, supported and enriched my life so much, and I assume your son will do exactly the same because, contrary to current belief, teenagers aren't necessarily total little shits. He is your work in progress, and you would be quite right to be enormously proud of him
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It took me forever to respond to this because you've made me cry. I couldn't think of a proper response to such love, so all I have is this: I hardly ever think that anything I do, or have done, is considered "good". Just necessary. And maybe not even that.
I should print this out and take it with me everywhere I go, because it'll remind me how I do have someone (a couple) out there that do love, care, and support me.
I like to think that I am (mostly) an open book, so I do hope that you like what you see. I do have some deep, dark secrets (which we can talk about later, if you wish). But, I appreciate everything you have said to me, and yes, I will take it to heart and try to remember it.
Hey, for someone like me who's never had children giving birth is pretty much the most impressive thing you could possibly do :)
And don't worry about only seeing the negative things, we tend to remember the negative things more than the positive things, but it doesn't mean there are no *points at commies above*
Have fun at your meeting with tkel_paris and take care *hugs*
Thank you so much, love. I don't know what to say, truthfully. It just send to me, that giving birth isn't anything special. So many have done it. I've done nothing special. In not talented. Hell, most people don't even want to spend time with me. But you did make me feel better. Thank you. *hugs*
I'm not even going to try and correct all the things wrong with what you've said about yourself, but I'm sure on a better day you can do it yourself.
Just know you're not alone in feeling this way, there are many of us struggling with varying levels of depression, and we all get days where we feel exactly as you described.
*hugs*
Aside from myself, there are at least half a dozen others from my friends list who have similar thoughts now and then.
We lean on each other on the bad days, it's all we can do since we're not that close geographically, but it does help.
Thank you so very much. I feel like such a burden most of the time, but it is very nice of you to say that. I have been told I have reasons to feel this way, but then I feel bad because I think other people have better reasons, and that depresses me more. Does that make any sense? Probably not. Sorry.
The one place you should never feel like a burden is right here on your own blog.
It's pretty clear from the number of comments you received that there are people here who will offer an ear, and whatever support they can, when it's needed, and you shouldn't feel bad for reaching out to them.
Even without those replies though, I've found it's sometimes useful just to put your thoughts down in a post. It can help you put things into perspective, and reading them back afterwards will often help you dismiss things too.
Also, while a "virtual" hug from an online friend might not sound like much, it's sometimes the EXACT thing you need to just get through the day.
Incidentally, you asked "Does that make any sense? and my answer is yes, it makes perfect sense, because I've been there and felt that exact same way. There's no such thing as a good or bad reason to feel the way you do, there are just reasons, and everyone's are slightly different, though in many ways very similar too.
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You have done more than give birth. You're raising a child and ensuring a good education is there for the taking. You're seeking to be a role model. You took a risk and posted fanfiction. You PM'd me to ask about my moving here. You're a friend that I don't yet know well enough to have random gigglefests with. (Although hezikiah and I got to that level pretty quickly, so there's a good precedent.)
I was in a depressed state a decade ago. I pulled through. In light of... a certain well-publicized death, I remind you that there are ways to get help and that there are reasons to carry on. One of them is to get to know a new friend.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Take care. We can always just not take any pictures. :)
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I didn't realize that the settings did that. I may have to mess with mine.
Thank you so much for EVERYTHING you said. I'm sorry. I hope you didn't feel bad because I posted that. I just can't help how I feel sometimes. The depression has been an ongoing issue since I was a teen, and I think it's because of situations I've been in, how I grew up, and how I've spent the last 10 years of my life. So... I apologize. I hope you don't think let of me.
I am very much looking forward to tonight! *hugs*
I know that I'm excited at the prospect of having a friend (as sad as that sounds lol)
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I should print this out and take it with me everywhere I go, because it'll remind me how I do have someone (a couple) out there that do love, care, and support me.
I like to think that I am (mostly) an open book, so I do hope that you like what you see. I do have some deep, dark secrets (which we can talk about later, if you wish). But, I appreciate everything you have said to me, and yes, I will take it to heart and try to remember it.
Thank you. <3 *hugs*
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And don't worry about only seeing the negative things, we tend to remember the negative things more than the positive things, but it doesn't mean there are no *points at commies above*
Have fun at your meeting with tkel_paris and take care *hugs*
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But you did make me feel better. Thank you. *hugs*
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Just know you're not alone in feeling this way, there are many of us struggling with varying levels of depression, and we all get days where we feel exactly as you described.
*hugs*
Aside from myself, there are at least half a dozen others from my friends list who have similar thoughts now and then.
We lean on each other on the bad days, it's all we can do since we're not that close geographically, but it does help.
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I'll just say thank you. :)
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It's pretty clear from the number of comments you received that there are people here who will offer an ear, and whatever support they can, when it's needed, and you shouldn't feel bad for reaching out to them.
Even without those replies though, I've found it's sometimes useful just to put your thoughts down in a post. It can help you put things into perspective, and reading them back afterwards will often help you dismiss things too.
Also, while a "virtual" hug from an online friend might not sound like much, it's sometimes the EXACT thing you need to just get through the day.
Incidentally, you asked "Does that make any sense? and my answer is yes, it makes perfect sense, because I've been there and felt that exact same way. There's no such thing as a good or bad reason to feel the way you do, there are just reasons, and everyone's are slightly different, though in many ways very similar too.
*hugs*
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