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Woke up in a complete funk this morning... I hate it when I wake up like this, it usually means that my day is going to be shitty.... Today is my friend Marcia's birthday in heaven... She would have been 38 today... Maybe that is why I am in a funk because I miss her so.
Last night I went to a NA meeting and totally felt out of place. I felt like ( Read more... ) -
College
I made the attempt to apply for college but because I am defaulted with other colleges I am una able to attend :(
The program sounded really good ~ oh well...I guess that I will have to remain bored out of my mind for just a little bit longer.I always have the kids to keep me busy and 50 Shades of Gray to keep me occupied at night. I really ( Read more... ) -
Agoraphobic
Being agoraphobic is horrible..... Every morning I wake up 15 minutes before I am suppose to go to work so that I get dressed and get out of the house. I do this because if I didn't do this I would end up calling out...
It is a struggle for me everyday and no one knows what I go through to get to work. The feeling of dread from the first time I ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: You’ve Got Mail!
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Merry Christmas
Well it is 3 days before Christmas and I am missing my dad more and more as the holidays come and go..... Last weekend we went and put the grave blankets on my dads grave and I was inconsolable....
My lil sis works for Home Instead Senior Care and every year they do a be a Santa to a Senior. Well this year she got my older sis who has been down ( Read more... ) -
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Things that I don't get:
How my sister can be soooo sick that she can't come and wrap her Christmas presents at my house but she isn't sick enough to go to her boyfriends house......
I just don't get it.... I know it is the holiday season and everyone needs to do there thing but I feel like I get taken advantage of sometimes....
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Yeah Friday
My god there is this guy on my bus that just doesnt shut up... Everyother word is fuck, now dont get me wrong I curse too but every other word is fuck with this guy... Ugh I am sooooo anxious right now..
My hands are shaking something awful today... Spoke to Karina to see what she thought.... She called Dr. Sharma to see what she wanted me to do ( Read more... ) -
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I hate it not being able to sleep... It is the worse feeling in the world just lying there waiting for sleep to happen and knowing damn well its not going away anytime soon.....
Today is the 1 year mark of when my dad was diagnosed with cancer... It is a sad day for me but I got up, got dressed and went to program even though I wanted to stay in bed ( Read more... )