My mom died a few months ago and it's been easier than it should be. I've been ignoring the whole thing for the most part for Isabella's sake. I moved back to be closer to my grandma and I have already switched jobs 3x in the past 3 months. Vinny and I have been together for a little over 4 years and I am grateful for him and Isabella. It's been ( Read more... )

My due date was Wednesday, but it's Monday and I'm still pregnant. I am the manager of the restaurant I started working at last year. Me and Vinny have our own apartment, and now we're just awaiting the arrival of our baby girl!

I am now a little over 9 months clean, and I am still doing good. I am now a shift leader at Moe's, and I will hopefully be assistant manager within the next month. I have been doing things so much differently lately then I have in the past years. It took me years of living this crazy reckless life to finally grow up and be responsible. My grandma ( Read more... )

Todays my 6 months clean and sober. I had court in Enfield this morning, and now i'm going back to New Haven where I live now. I went to rehab for 5 months. I really thought I was clean and sober when I went to rehab last year, but I was still smoking pot and drinking so that's not clean. My grandma just bought me a lap top today for doing so good ( Read more... )

Im still with Vinny, Still struggling to stay clean. I went to rehab in Dec. I was clean for 6 months and fucked up

For a little over a month I've been dating and living with this guy Vinny. I mean, we are really in love, but like always after the honeymoon stage, things start to get a little harder. I've only done drugs a few times since I've been here but I lied to him about it n got caught.

It's crazy how one person or thing can have such influence, or impact on your life and everything decision made. It feels like a blessing, but also a curse. I like the person that I am today, but I wish I didn't have to deal with the strgglr to get here.

The easiest way to say this is... I'm fucked. How many years am I gonna keep doing the same things before I stop? I was reading an entry from 2010 talking about how I was waiting to get pills from Marla, and here it is 2012 n nothing has changed except the people and places. I went to detox last week and signed myself out AMA, thinking I could do ( Read more... )

I moved back to my grandma's in Conneticut. I buncha shit happend.. The girls who were my only girlfriends in Vermont all turned on me and were talking shit about how I shouldnt leave my house cuz they were gonna beat my ass when they caught me on the street... It was stupid. I started hooking up with this guy Mike who is older, and his family has ( Read more... )

My world has been flipped upside down, turned over, scratched, cracked, and then broken. I feel like I've been hit with a wirlwind, or a tornado or something. Chris moved out a little over a month ago, and I started dating Michael. I broke up with Chris, a week later I started talking to Michael, and slept with him the first time we hung out ( Read more... )