I’ve been feeling really alone lately, which is all my doing but I still wanna wine about it.

I’ve moved out of the house and into the granny flat, which is great seeing me and mum have very different decorating ideas, but it’s kinda lonely up there. Yer I can play my music loud, walk around in my under wear and not have to worry about smelling ( Read more... )

I’m numb again.

I guess that it’s the worst thing during exam time, I’m not getting stressed or worried, but I also know that there is a bad side to it. I’m ‘winging’ it, I should be studying, should be going over my notes but I can’t convince my self to

No highs, no lows.

A friend asked me what makes me smile, what do I need to make me happy. I ( Read more... )

I wish that the little things always seemed as important as when I first thought of them.

I finally told someone something that I felt they always should have known, I don’t regret it but if I had the chance to do it again I would most likely do it different, say somethings, and leave some others out. But it’s a burden lifted off both of us ( Read more... )

I’ve felt like a bitch all day, I dreamt about someone last night. Not a big thing for most people, but I’m not most people, I’m engaged. I can hardly look in his eyes because I feel like I’m lying to him. I didn’t do anything; I haven’t lied to him so why do I feel so bad?

Two of his friends are engaged as well, the party is tomorrow, I hope ( Read more... )

Night time is when it all comes out, the depression, the looniness, the fear that I am alone, that in some way or another I will always be alone.

The feeling you get when you walk into a room of strangers only to realise when you leave that they were your dearest.

The feeling you get when your holding a phone but there’s no one to call.

I’ve lived ( Read more... )