My life and everyone’s around me seems to be falling apart, I chose to blame myself
I’ve felt like a bitch all day, I dreamt about someone last night. Not a big thing for most people, but I’m not most people, I’m engaged. I can hardly look in his eyes because I feel like I’m lying to him. I didn’t do anything; I haven’t lied to him so why do I feel so bad?
Two of his friends are engaged as well, the party is tomorrow, I hope that’s why all of this has come up.
My whole life is being planned and in a way I love that, I just wish that I knew it was right. No scrap that I wish I could get him out of my head. I’m in love! Shouldn’t that be it? No choosing if it’s right, or if his the one or even if you want a he? God…this is so fucked up, my friends are going through the hardest times of their lives and I’m thinking if I want a cunt or a cock. I don’t even know if I’m thinking that.
4 people
I’m with 1
1 I could have short term fun with
The others I could marry