It really isn't fun..going through all of this. All the self-reflection, all the nights alone laying in bed just missing having someone there, all the talks with people who care about me hearing them say "It'll be ok." "This best for both of you." Learning to be single, learning to be without him..it really isn't fun ( Read more... )

I just keep trying to be happy and move on and be ok ( Read more... )

Lately. Things have been different. Before, you may have heard me say that I'm pretty lucky person. And for the most part- I am. Still am. But then there are always points in my life when everything seems to go wrong at the same time ( Read more... )

I am, quite confuzzled.

It's a strange feeling. Your life is this way, ok? These are the people who cause problems in your life, these are the people you're responsible for, these are the people who are your friends, and here is the person you love and who loves you. The people who cause problems- they'll never leave. The ones you are responsible for,- you're responsible ( Read more... )

Breathe in, and breathe out. Whatever happens, happens. If what was meant to be, it will be. Just live your life...move on ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do. I'm at a crossroads and he is blocking every path...I love him. But I can't do this game anymore.

So I failed pretty miserably at giving him what he wanted..I'm so stupid. Now he says it can't ever work between us and he broke up with me...yeah ( Read more... )

For the record. My back hurts so bad right now I wanna cry. Throw that on all this emotion I'm dealing with cause of me and jasen...and all I want to do is call him and talk to him or hug him I'm so overwhelmed by everything...working 11hrs and then straight to school after I get off at 7am...I just want someone to hold me...

So now I am half-way through mine and jasen's 5 day "break"..well really 4 day cause monday I talked to him meaning to try and make things better sooner, and just made it worse...ugh. So far just a couple days of not being with or talking to jasen has brought along several new ideas, thoughts, realizations- whatever you wanna call them ( Read more... )