So I know I have somewhat of an excuse because I feel like gnomes have been grating my throat for the last 2 days, thank you strep throat, but I still feel completely useless. My house looks like poop right now, there are dishes everywhere (mostly mine), clutter has exploded in the living room, kitchen, computer room, and bedroom. I have a strong ( Read more... )

I finally figured it all out this morning while groggily lying in bed. A giant portion of my emotional despair is because of that fucker hope, which again is why I want Spleen IV by Baudelaire tattooed on me. Anygay, most of my problems arise because I have expectations that are not met, or I make plans which don't work out the way I'd hoped, or ( Read more... )

Ok so it's time for me to man up and stop being such a pussy about everything all the time. I've taken a break from facebook so I wont have an outlet to whine and I will be avoiding this for a while too probably or it will become my faux facebook and defeat the purpose ( Read more... )

I'm done. I'm over all the secrets and the drama that inevitably goes hand in hand with those secrets. I'm over people saying one thing and meaning another. I'm sick of being misled. I'm over all of it ( Read more... )

How is it that I can summon the strength to tell an exboyfriend that no I don't think I can let him back into my life to fuck me over yet again and somehow I can't stand up for myself when someone makes me feel like crap. I feel like an ugly piece of crap most of the time, I have 0 self esteem and I don't know how to stop. Lately my feelings have ( Read more... )

Well I'm at my wits end again. I've run out of strength and the fumes I've been subsisting on have almost dissapated aswell. Most of my problems revolve around money. Zach lost his $24/hour job last year and was out of work for 3 months. In that time we fell behind on the mortgage, despite our efforts to work with the bank who have continually ( Read more... )

Well the God of work has shit on Zach again and as of tomorrow night he will be once more unemployed because the fuckers at Walden decided that when they took over the contract for the VW plant they weren't going to take the majority of the security already out there with them. Even better is they kept this notion hush hush and set up private ( Read more... )

A friend posted this on myspace and I thought it was the greatest thing ever because it really gives an insight into chick thinking. This makes me weak in the knees ( Read more... )

So this St Patricks Day will go down in the journal of my life as a day of firsts ( Read more... )

This is for the people at the bank who fucked up my financial information and decided we made $3000 more per month than the bills we owe and therefore deserve no assistance with our well behind mortgage payments. The really funny thing is that we don't even make $3000 a month. This is also for the 30% of my customers who think it's ok to treat ( Read more... )