Introspection.

[angstysquee]

I had a talk with Kelly, and it really made me realize what an icky person I am a lot. There are so many things about me that are just awful, and it makes me so frustrated that I can't change them. I know a lot of times I give certain impressions, and whether I want to or not, they come out all wrong and I become judged for it. I am really starting

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[citan_uzuki]

No one's perfect, at least you are aware of your faults and not completely oblivious to them. I think you're overexaggerating a bit about those faults, don't be so hard on yourself. In the time that I've known you, I can easily say that your good qualities outweigh your bad ones a million times, or else why would I keep talking to you and be friends with you? I don't make friends with "demanding, or bitchy, or seemingly rude" people.

[resonant]

Icky??? Not as far as I can see.

[mu]

Yeah, with ya there on the Icky??? thing....

[onex]

Human nature will always see the bad over the good, reliving the painful memories over the good. Some thing that by constantly reliving old wounds, they wont allow them to happen again. Others believe that the best way to prevent future tragedy, is to live in it constantly

[mu]

I do the same thing. For some reason, I can't remember the stupid little things, like I said I'd clean the bathroom, or I have an appointment at 3 today, or stuff like that. People get the same impression of me, that I'm rude or flaky or whatnot, and it hurts cause its so much harder for me to do those things that seem to come easy to everyone else. And I get defensive too, I think it's cause I grew up fighting my dad, and so I'm not used to judging situations on the spot and automatically throw up a defense at any perceived threat. I have no clue what to do about it, just thought it might help to know you're not the only one it happens too

[jackspenance]

I have known you for almost 8 years regardless of all the abesnt mindedness and other flaws you have I have always seen the good in you that lays beneith it all. You are a good person and you don't mean to hurt any one even though you do some times. You'll be ok your self is the hardest thing to change though it can be done.