Introspection.

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I had a talk with Kelly, and it really made me realize what an icky person I am a lot. There are so many things about me that are just awful, and it makes me so frustrated that I can't change them. I know a lot of times I give certain impressions, and whether I want to or not, they come out all wrong and I become judged for it. I am really starting

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Human nature will always see the bad over the good, reliving the painful memories over the good. Some thing that by constantly reliving old wounds, they wont allow them to happen again. Others believe that the best way to prevent future tragedy, is to live in it constantly.

In your defence, it's not nearly as hard to be with you as you make it sound, although that "live for me" first thing is kinda a pain. And it IS true that you have a tendancy to use people, most of the time without realizing it. Calling people out of the blue only to get rides (although I myself am VERY much guilty of the one) and things like that can be taken the wrong way if done too often. If it might seem like a selfish thing, go ahead and thank them profusely to at least remove some of the sting.

But that's the human nature in me dwelling on the bad... so let's fix that. The surprise party you threw for me was actually quite awesome. The look in your eyes during the handfasting as you gazed lovingly into mine *NEARLY* broke me. Every minute I spent with you in my arms filled me with nothing short of joy. Don't forget that. If you're gonna forget anything, forget my birthday =P Forget our old car. Forget the old street adresses.... but not us.