sooo, here we are, just a little over a day before Nathan gets here. What am I feeling, you may ask me. Apprehension, nervousness, and an overwhelming excitement. I am meeting, for the first time in person, the man who I have fallen in love with over the past few months. This is something completely new to me, and to him as well. Neither one of us ( Read more... )

holy shit... i just told him my deepest darkest secret, that i never thought id tell to anybody. im shaking and he was shaking so bad that i had to give him permission to go have a smoke to help him calm down... this is major...

i decided that it was time to update. its 26 days until Nathan gets here. i am soooo excited about that. i cannot wait until i can be held in his arms, which i want so much. my parents go back and forth between really really nice and really really horrible, which is making my decision on whether to leave or not that much harder. i have so many ( Read more... )

my parents are getting worse again. my only comfort these days is Nathan. he understands me so much, it's like we're two people made out of the same mold. and the crazy thing is, no matter how bad i've gotten, he hasn't turned away from me. he believes what i believe... that in a relationship, you're supposed to be there for the other person no ( Read more... )

well, im having problems with my parents again... my mom is treating me like im a 4 year old, and its really starting to piss me off... i ended up calling Nathan and sobbing to him for an hour, and getting him upset because he couldnt be here to comfort me. i want to be there with him so bad, and if i had the money and knew a safe way, i would have ( Read more... )

I am slowly learning that no matter how badly you want someone there, and no matter how much you whine about it, they will not be there in the next hour, day, or even week. They will be there when they are supposed to be and not before ( Read more... )

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so, tonights festivities (clubbing) have been postponed, due to the fact that the only one who has shown any interest in it was christina. please get back to me on a date that would suit all of your needs ( Read more... )

Tonight I feel like shit. I skipped my lab and sat with Alex for a while. Afterwards I went down to the pier. When I got out of my car, it was raining, just like that night, remember? Except that the wind was blowing really hard, and it felt like piercing needles, not like that soft rain that night, when it came straight down, and I could stand in ( Read more... )

i cant stand this anymore. for the past weeks... months, my parents have gotten worse and worse, and it exploded last night, and it never seemed clearer... i need to leave. i cannot stand to live with them any longer, with them attempting to control every single detail of my LIFE. its mine, and they should not be able to do that. if i could have, i ( Read more... )