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[no_tact_cordy]

Who: Cordelia, Open
Where: Wolfram & Hart, Cordelia's new office
When: A few hours after the first meeting
What: Trying to get a handle on everything and figure out her place
Status: Complete

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[luna_ruby]

Fred knocked on Cordelia's office door.

"Cordy?"

[no_tact_cordy]

Cordy smiled a little. She was so grateful Fred was in her life. She hadn't been able to girl talk with anyone since high school, and back then nothing had mattered. Not really.

"Come on in, Fred."

[luna_ruby]

Fred slipped into the office and looked around, she looked hopelessly disappointed, she was trying not to show it, but her poker face was horrible.

"Nice office," Fred told her, "It's nicer then mine..."

[no_tact_cordy]

Cordy finally looked away from the ceiling, but she didn't sit up. "Yeah, but you've also got a whole lab to run. I just have the office. Anyway, it looks bigger than it is because there's nothing in it yet."

She took in the look on Fred's face. "What happened?"

[silentwasp]

Wesley leaned back against Cordy's desk. "Fine... But be warned I am in a really bad mood. So if I am not nice about it because you did not give me time to calm down it is your own fault." Wesley snapped slightly.

[no_tact_cordy]

"So my options are what? Either I can force you two to talk out your crap now and possibly you'll get snippy because I didn't give you enough time, or I can let you leave and deal with a few more weeks of both of you moping around the office and focusing on your own problems when we're in the middle of an Apocalypse. I'm sorry, Wes, I really don't want to piss you off or stick my nose in where it doesn't belong, but for the good of the entire world...you two need to talk."

Cordy smiled, satisfied with her speech, and with getting Wes into the room in the first place. She was definitely gonna milk this coma thing to death.

[luna_ruby]

"Oh! Right! The talking!" Fred said and suddenly felt dumb and nervous.

[silentwasp]

Wesley really wished he had just walked away. For whatever reason he seemed to be lacking his usual snappy comebacks. "Fine let me put this more bluntly. I do not care. I am not talking to her." He didn't care if he sounded childish or if it hurt Fred's feelings. She had done her share of damage to him already. "Personally I would like to get back to work. You are right we do not have time to be wrapped up in personal feelings."

[silentwasp]

Wesley was quiet for a moment thinking about what they both had said. "Fred... I do not want you to know this side of me. If I tell you it will be all out there and things will change and I just do not want to loose our friendship over it." What was he saying? That was what he wanted the friendship to end. He wanted more from her but she wasn't willing to give it. Friends was better than nothing right?

Then there was Lilah... She told him she loved him and he believed her. He had been down that road before and now he felt like he had to choose. The same choice Fred had when it was him and Gunn. "I am ashamed at the way I have been feeling... I know it is stupid and I just..."

[no_tact_cordy]

Cordy was about to point out the absurdity of not wanting to lose his friendship with the girl he was refusing to speak to, but he kept going, so she just closed her eyes and thought, Please. Please let this work. If they won't be my light at the end of the tunnel, then who will?

[luna_ruby]

'I do not want you to know this side of me.' What side could that be? He had chased her around the hotel with an ax for Pete's sake! Okay so that had been Billy's fault but still... She was pretty sure she had seen the range, angry gun totting Wesley, funny mocking Angel's love life with Cordelia Wesley, thinking he killed his own dad for her Wesley... sad lonely miserable Wesley who looked at her like she was the most beautiful...

"There's nothing you could say that would be worse then nothing..." Fred dared to reply.

[silentwasp]

"Oh so being angry at you for choosing everyone else but me? Being angry because I can't just go on with my life because I am in love with you? That you will never return my feelings as long as there is a Knox around so you do not have to settle?

Or how about when you said we should be confidants and I bared my feelings and said I wanted us to be more than that for a long time. Which you replied by asking me what I thought of Knox. I am not an idiot Fred.

It is stupid for me to be jealous and angry because I can not move on. Or I can not get another relationship because everyone has you hanging over there heads when I do decide to let go. I lost my chance for happiness at the ballet and apparently it is never coming back. Not with you or with anyone else." Wesley said bitterly. "There are you happy now?"

He looked away from her. It felt good to get all of that off his chest. Even if he did hate himself for saying it. "Now Lilah does not even want me because of you."

[luna_ruby]

Under normal circumstances Fred probably would have choked at what Cordy had said but she was a little too involved in trying to get to Wesley.

Fred stepped closer to him and searched his face for a reaction... any readable reaction. Positive? Negative? She'd take it as long as she knew. Of course all she was getting was the blank stare of confusion.

"Wes..." Fred whispered before in one last ditch effort Fred throw caution to the wind and her cards on the table and lifted up on her tippy toes to try to give Wesley a kiss.

[no_tact_cordy]

If Wes didn't kiss Fred, Cordy was going to throttle him. And then she was going to get drunk and mope and feel useless. Then she would throttle him again.

Come on, she thought desperately. Or do you need me to start playing that song from The Little Mermaid?

[silentwasp]

Wesley closed his eyes and returned the kiss. He was still pretty confused.

[luna_ruby]

Fred kissed him as passionately as she could, given his confusion, trying to convey all her feelings for him through the way her lips moved.

[silentwasp]

Wesley stared back at Fred. The confusion was gone. He looked somewhere between happy and fearful. He was searching her face please let this not fall through like it did before.

[luna_ruby]

Fred smiled at him, "So umm... I think that clears up my position on the subject." she nodded a little.

[silentwasp]

"No... No it didn't." Wesley said and kissed her again. His brain had finally started working again.

[no_tact_cordy]

Cordy was quite proud of Fred for finally expressing herself, but she was never one to pass up the credit when she felt she deserved it. In a slightly sarcastic voice, she said, "Thank you, Cordy, for making us stop moping and talk to each other. You're an amazing human being and we'll be grateful to you for the rest of our lives."