is it bad that i dont think these are the best years of my life?

just got home from work. thanks masa. we close at 10 i thought?

oh, and fuck you kid. my dad can kick your ass, cancer or not.

things would be much easier if i could listen to what everyone is telling me. things would be much easier if i could believe them ( Read more... )

i work really hard to keep everything together. i help more than ever and i'm happy to do so. matt is a complete disappointment. he will help, but begrudgingly. he yells all the time...a complete loose cannon. i think dad should kick him out. dad doesnt need the abuse. dad needs to be happy and as stress free as possible. him and i are having a ( Read more... )

we used to have one of those calenders that had a spot for every person in the family. it went mom, dad, meredith, matt, madison. mom left and her name got scratched out. for the rest of that year, there was just a big red line through mom. and she was gone.

i want to experience it all. i want to feel all the pleasure and all the pain.

seriously, i dont know who the FUCK anyone is anymore.

im glad i stay awake thinking until 330 on nights that i dont have class the next day. way to prioritize.

pushing and pulling only tears people apart.

so i had mtv on the other morning while i was getting ready and this song called "what is love" by never shout never was playing and i thought it was cool so i wrote it down, whatever. today i listen to it and actually read the lyrics and its about this guys parents getting a divorce and it made me cry. fuck ( Read more... )

lol dan facebook messaged me telling me how i keep getting better and better and asking me if i'm ok. AHAHAHAHAHA. i wanted to say, "and you keep getting worse and worse" but i wont respond. you're too late, kid. im with a really really wonderful amazing treats me right kinda guy :) and he's coming to visit on friday! and im leaving tuesday at ( Read more... )