I've been looking at this tablet for far too long already.Its funny how I come here when I know I'm done scrolling, but I'm still too lazy to get up and do anything else. Another week down, another exhausted Friday night where I skip the evening event. It's awesome, tho. I have time to read novels and structure my time to include finding and ( Read more... )

My cat is sick. A couple of days ago we took him to vet ER and dropped $700 for x-rays and an ultrasound which turned out normal. They said it was probably a viral infection, like the flu and to keep him inside til he gets better. Some how he keeps getting out and laying in the street, two days in a row when I've been out a lady has picked him up ( Read more... )

Deep questions. First, a warm up. Where and when am I? Monday night in panties bedroom mode. Small glass of whiskey. The mysterious bottle that has sat on the sun porch untouched for at least a year. Bit up from Pisgah Reservoir where we watched the beautiful ribbon-like leech try and come onto the Rock to eat us. Maybe just as amazingly(but ( Read more... )

What's uppppp

I am having troubles moving forward. There is a defined list of things that I know I need to do, but I am not doing them. Mainly because I think I don't have the time, but also for reasons I don't fully understand. Getting my health insurance back is a huge one, paying my long over due and inflated excise tax another, signing up for foodstamps. I ( Read more... )

I live for the breeze through my window. I'm up early. There is not much to do, but a lot. I have been attempting to formulate a personal statement to send to universities where my significant experience doesn't include a lot of seedy trauma and embarrassing co-dependance. While personal, emotional work is a major part of my life, I feel both ( Read more... )

I'm concerned about things. Anxious. I have frightening thoughts, like my face becoming clay-like. Changeable, but never quite the same once altered. Rode back from Woodstock in the rain and hit 2 in Charlemont in the blackest downpour and fog. At one point I had to forget I was alive in order to keep moving forward. Bryan broke down behind me and ( Read more... )

I slept last night from 6:20 until 8 this morning. Things got all messed up when I drank a red bull before the Bunnies show on Thursday. It was one of those situations where I offered couch space to a touring band so I had to at least go and meet them beforehand. They ended up wanting to crash in Worcestor to break up the trip to a show Portland, ( Read more... )

On my weird list of things to do today I wrote something to the effect of "examine emotions" which is actually totally random. Since I completed most of everything else on said list, maybe this bullet was the most important daily need since it came straight from my unconscious. It could be that I feel somewhat dispassionate and empty sometimes so I ( Read more... )

Cherry, Boo Boo, Smokey, Sun, and Panda are the biker names up for grabs in my fantasy gang called the Scare Bears. I love riding my new motorcycle, she is a powerful purple pony. And these days are perfect 77 degrees, so much goddamn green, fucking blue, and the best clouds from sunrise to sunset. June is awesome ( Read more... )