hi, howre you? what day is it? i dont even know. im so restless. i havent done anything in three days. all i do is wait to go to work, come home and wait for the day to be over. wait wait wait. all this waiting for what. i cant think, wheres everything going. why all this and why now and why not me. makes no sense. hi i think youre scum, i have ( Read more... )

you are the biggest fucking asshole ever.
seriously? i want to punch your face in.

you havent put me through enough bullshit already?

im so mad right now. i dont remember the last time i was this mad. at anyone. i am so tempted to call you and confront you and yell at you. it cant be true. and if thats what youre telling people, then you deserve to go ( Read more... )

its already hard for me to sit here and write this. i feel as though im always being judged for the words coming out of my mouth. i cant say anything without someone taking five minutes to step into my shoes and out of their own lives and really think how this is hard for me. and im already starting to tear up. because i feel the flood of emotion ( Read more... )

things are so odd right now.
i want to say 'lets make things all right again'
but i dont want them to be "right" i want things to be different.

lets just end this bullshit already.

its been quite some time since i posted. i remember when i was addicted to this thing. i miss writing a lot. i wish i could get back into it, ive tried but i think i need to try harder. and reading. i used to be a reading machine and then i just stopped. so odd. i just read a book called Looking for Alaska by John Green and it was phenominal. i ( Read more... )

he's perfect.
& yet, something is completely bothering me and i cant figure out what it is. so what am i going to do? chop off my long hair, clean out my room entirely, paint, change things, and wait for the feeling of content to return to my insane body.

i want to tell you i love you, i want to yell it in your face, i mean it this time, i really am ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ
that is all for today.

i havent been in a relationship in a long time where i felt this instantly wonderful. you make me feel so wonderful. you pick up on the small things, you listen when i talk, you make sure to take care of me, you rub my back and let me lay all over you,  you offer to pay for everything, even some of my own things, you want to be involved in my life ( Read more... )

prom is in two days! im so excited, i have the best goofball of a date : ) i just wanna dance all night long
& summer is so close i can taste it. life is wonderful

Soundtrack: Drops of Jupiter by Train- our prom song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCeWat8zx18