being back in b-lo
has never felt better

:)

as i type each letter of this entry
my bag gets a little bigger and bigger
ad my mom sits on the suitcase
to zip it close
my carry on bag
well it carries my life
and everything that will get me through life
sure theres no room for friends in there
but something tells me
theres no such thing as "no room"
for i know that without words being said
everythings ok
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every ounce of blood and soul
in that body of yours
has me leaning over the toilet
puking
that's how disgusted i am with you
and all your little friends

i have never actually felt like quitting before
but the thought of having to get into shape
and having to go out running
just doesnt appeal to me anymore
i have no ambition to get ready for the season
its only july and i already hate it
i think thats a bad sign
there are so many other things i could do
with those 2 hours
i could work
go to the gym
volunteer
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i couldn't be happier
with the way things went at my party
i had an amazing time
i hope everyone else did too!

lately i've realized
it's the simple things in life that make me happy
I've realized
it doesnt matter how long you've known someone
as a matter of fact
i've realized the people i've known my whole life
don't feel like my best friends
it's the ones who i've met in the past year
who truely seem to understand me
I;ve realized 
theres always second chances
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times are a changin'
and i couldn't be happier
last inght was excalty the closure i needed
and when one door closes 
another one opens
<3

i love how you drive 30 minutes
to go to wegmans and get as much shit as you can
bags filled to the top with candy
you bring a cooler to put the ice cream in
so it's not completley soup
by the time we get to the park
we drive with you holding my hand
and telling me "your crazy but i'm absolutley crazy about you"
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i've decided im sick of looking back
and worrying about the past
when i can forget everything that happened
and start fresh
so from now on it's nothing but looking forward
and all new beginings
confidence, care-free, worry-free beginings

i think i am finally at the point where im happy
i love being single
im done with him
i love my weight, im 20 lbs lighter
im still losing weight but im happy
i realized who my true friends are
and i realized im happy playing catch phrase and drinknig pink stuff
i dont need alchol or drugs or sex to make me happy
i am happy