Happier than I've been in a very long time...if ever.
I'm almost afraid to say so, as if saying it out loud would jinx it...but fuck it.
I'm happy :)

I had the best day yesterday, which was only punctuated by the snow.
There's something about walking out in freshly fallen snow...
while it's still falling, and people are afraid to drive, so
you can walk ( Read more... )

At some point over the summer, I took up drawing again. I have some proper sketchpads and drawing pencils, but I don't actually use them very often ( Read more... )

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To dream that you are holding hands with someone represents love, affection and your connection with that person. Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart ( Read more... )

Yesterday, an old college acquaintance posts the following to his facebook account:

'I love how bullying only became a problem when it started affecting straight kids'To say that this ruffled my feathers a bit would be a gross understatement. It raised just about every single red flag that I have ( Read more... )

• I have a mental illness. Anxiety and depression, complicated by things from my past, ie. abandonment, physical abuse, etc.
• I write in this journal primarily to vent. Writing helps me to focus and to sort through my thoughts and emotions. Getting feedback from others helps me to do the same.
• I tend to write here most when I am upset or angry. The ( Read more... )

i've calmed down somewhat. probably more out of exhaustion than anything.
i don't know what to believe right now.
i don't know what sort of reaction to have.

i hate paranoid schizophrenia more than anything.

I am genuinely trying to avoid killing myself right now ( Read more... )

I'm not enjoying my life.
I know many of you will tell me that I need to focus on making it enjoyable.
Or that I just need to focus on the positive aspects.
I really wish it were as simple as that.

I wish I didn't feel abandoned and taken advantage of by the majority of people I care about. 
I wish I didn't end up feeling worse about being depressed, ( Read more... )

Uncle Ray's response:

Allison,

You are obviously much more intelligent than I am and this response is well written. Being quite older than you are, I definitely can see a major change in this country in recent years and I am very much afraid where it is going and what it will be for my grandchildren. You may not realize it yet, but we have lost ( Read more... )