i'd be perfectly content working for the handful of dimes that the city's filthiest apartment is willing to charge me in order to crash on its floor with a perfect combination of toxins and enhancers and the worst people i've ever met that i love with all of my big fucking heart. and maybe that boy with the smile is laying next to me for more than ( Read more... )

tonight is one of those nights where your own bed just feels amazing. realization of my evening: pajamas are where the party's at.

nobody can take a joke.
suck it up, pussy.

me and mike are going to the monster truck rally on sunday. hahah. i've never been. "ALYSSA! DO YOU WANT TO GO TO THE MONSTER TRUCK RALLY WITH ME?! COME ON. JUST IMAGINE THE PEOPLE THAT'LL BE THERE WATCHING IT. IT'LL BE AWESOME ( Read more... )

i just ate the most delicious and massive bowl of my mom's home made macaroni and cheese and i washed it down with three full glasses of milk. and my only after thought is: "man, if i was lactose intolerant, i'd probably die right now ( Read more... )

i just finished up about a months worth of make up work and in maybe an hour or so. one hand it feels relieving and good to have it all done. and on the other hand i want to punch myself in the face for just not doing it on time now that i see how easy it was and how little time it took me to actually do it once i sat down and tried. how ( Read more... )

i've decided that i'm actually going to get a job. and i'm going to get an apartment. and i know what you're all thinking, my mom is probably going to pay for it. and maybe that'll be true to begin with but eventually i'm going to start helping myself a little bit more and get on my own two feet ( Read more... )

i just slept for 15 hours ( Read more... )

if you would have told me a year ago that i'd be crying right now for the reason that i'm crying, i would have laughed in your face and told you to shut the fuck up. life is so strange. and this is one of those things where i'm basically sticking my hand in the fire time and time again and each time i get burned worse than the time before but i ( Read more... )

i hate being right sometimes. and i know it has nothing to do with me anymore but it still makes me feel pretty sad. and i'm probably being hypocritical because i do a lot of things that aren't good for my body and my health in the meantime and i don't always respect when my friends are concerned about them. but for some reason i can't shake how ( Read more... )

and i've decided that i'd be perfectly happy with waking up on that hard wood floor every morning for the rest of my life because those walls are filled with nothing but good times and kids that'd give their lives for you. material possessions really do mean less than nothing when you're on the most ridiculous and useless drive of your life but you ( Read more... )