i cant remember what color the balloons were on the first day ( Read more... )

totally stole this from giulia. shh.

2006
january..
winterfest rehearsals.
director-actor issues.
denial.
tim.

february..
nutrition facts.
posters go down, new ones come up.
depression.
everyone wanting to get the hell out of lexington.

march..
pre-test for karate.
dan... again.
eliott smith love.
the beginnings of madness.
calvin's surprise party.
"thank you" by ( Read more... )

haha! 7 to 8.

the night roared through our lonely minds.
the stars shined in a freezing sky
and the clock's numbers kept changing.
familiar songs, a familiar face,
the roads, the happy tones, the smiles
these were somewhat new.
i couldn't bring myself to tell you, when you asked,
how you used to be, how you used to feel.
roll down the windows, let it the ( Read more... )

one of my favorite things is sitting in front of the christmas tree, thinking.
the lights dance in front of me when my vision gets blurry
i dont want to blink because then everything will be clear again.

...i wish i could ask you, but i just can't. 
its not in our vocabulary.

the snow came down as they sat side by side inside ( Read more... )

i have come to some conclusions, some i still havent faced.. but i will, i know i will.
im pretty sure i know about the red envelopes.
i will not be staying.
i think that in some way, i have helped. and i didnt make anyone mad. i simply cared and loved. that seemed to be enough for now.
i havent decided about the doctors
it seems less important on how ( Read more... )

ive been trying to piece together things in vain over the past few days.. i sat on the 7-hour death ride from maryland, reading the DaVinci Code, thinking, and sleeping.. this is what i came up with..
--my family in the south is extremely racist and homophobic
--i have to start thinking about colleges
--i dont know what my life would be like without ( Read more... )

i havent made a non-friends only entry in awhile.. well, here we go!

i cant believe im leaving tomorrow for maryland. it seems like i was just there, but really i was there almost three months ago.. ill be there until i think saturday. it will be nice to get away, i admit, but i dont really feel like coming back to not-so-wonderful news regarding a ( Read more... )

i wonder who you are nowadays,
so far from who you had wanted to be.
i wonder if you think im the same.

thank you for making me laugh a lot today.

i feel like ive missed out on something.
i want to talk to you and see you more.

you'll be all right. you're stronger than i could ever be.
time.. thats all it takes. you'll be back on your feet soon enough.

you ( Read more... )

when i was little, dreams seemed not as big.
i was smaller, yes, but the sky-high dreams seemed reachable.
i would marry him, i would have kids, he promised it all.
and i remember smiling.
but then he was gone, and i grew a couple inches, lost a couple dreams.
instead of knowledge i turned to hope, thought hope would guide him home.
the tables turned ( Read more... )