"yesterday was hell but today im fine without you.."

[alonetonight11]

i cant remember what color the balloons were on the first day.
light blue? pink? i cant remember anymore.
i cant remember what time recess was, or what time i got home.
i cant remember which of two swings was mine
or what color your coat used to be.
i cant remember what it was like or how i felt
all of this has slipped away.
i cant remember how to do a one-hander
or how to not kill myself jumping off the monkey bars.
i cant remember why we thought it was gross
or how we got away with it at all.
i cant remember what it felt like to climb the real ropes
or how we judged %'s.
i cant remember how your hand felt in mine
or what it was like to have everything before you
and to be completely unafraid.