Since your story is pretty much mine word for word (I've said the soulmates thing many many times) I absolutely know how you feel. Most people, well meaning or not, just don't get it, but I completely understand about the "never feeling 100% happy again" bit. I made a post about that a few days ago. Also I absolutely want to STAB that douchebag for saying that to you. <3
*hugs you* Thank you, dear. And yeah. I usually don't tell much people about that part (never being 100% happy) because most of them think it's either being a dramaqueen or overreacting, but. Eh.
Most people definitely would see it as overreacting simply because very few people have the kind of relationship with their parents that we have. A friend of mine said to me that he didn't think that soulmates had to be a romantic thing. He said it could be a friend or a family member. I feel like that's 100% true. I never felt like there was anything that I couldn't tell my Mom. She understood me. We finished each other's sentences. She was really and truly the most important person in my life.
Losing that, it's impossible to not imagine where your life would be. I know my life would be completely different. I can't stop wondering about the life I was supposed to have and the person I was supposed to be
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I definitely not believe that soulmates have to be a romantic thing and yes, I know what you mean with being able to tell anything and everything to your mom. Part of me has had to stop thinking of the things we were going to do because it was driving me further and further into depression.
Oh honey, birthdays, yes. My mom died about two months before my 22 birthday, and I spent that whole day sleeping. I had cake with my dad and sisters, said thank you for their gifts, and then I went right back under the blankets where the day didn't exist.
It's not even as if I think or say that I won't get to be happy. I feel that I owe it to my mom, to be as happy as possible, because now I have her share of happiness to live as well. But yes. It's a tainted happiness, most definitely.
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Losing that, it's impossible to not imagine where your life would be. I know my life would be completely different. I can't stop wondering about the life I was supposed to have and the person I was supposed to be ( ... )
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Oh honey, birthdays, yes. My mom died about two months before my 22 birthday, and I spent that whole day sleeping. I had cake with my dad and sisters, said thank you for their gifts, and then I went right back under the blankets where the day didn't exist.
It's not even as if I think or say that I won't get to be happy. I feel that I owe it to my mom, to be as happy as possible, because now I have her share of happiness to live as well. But yes. It's a tainted happiness, most definitely.
Thank you for understanding ♥
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*Hugs*
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Quiero patear a la persona que te dijo eso. *acurruca* ;;
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pero quien rayos...
*Abraza*
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