sometimes i think everything is okay
my brain gives me a break from reality

really
it just makes things worse

i couldn't slow it down, couldn't avoid it.
no one could.

my life is a dirty mess and i can't get my shit together.
i hate everyone for being so happy when i have nothing at all.

i can't sleep at night and i can't function.
all i do is work now because i can't leave my house and go out with people.
i'm too paranoid to talk to anyone.
and no one wants anything to do with a crazy person.

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THE DINER IS A BIG POO POO HEAD.

i don't think i can do this anymore.

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i don't think a single person knows how lonely i am.

you're no sociopath
you are a self-suffered trauma
dance in your dirt
my heart is bleeding on my shirt
tethered to my sleeve in the wind
you were my cardinal
the definition of red
and you carried on with your apathy
rubbing off on me
bullseyed my remaining trust
and threw poison darts
i can pass by the fevers of summer
snowglobing my love
but the quicksand that ( Read more... )

i dreamt of a red bird who was tied to a string in a storm and kept getting slammed in doors.