deleting this no one here wouuld miss me. we are all strangers unacquainted :'(

havnt been here much, its been a while but somehow  i still feel obligated to post. idk what it is,, been away  not because ive stayed away, but i guess there hasnt been anything to draw me back to LJ and check anything or post.  im not sure if i feel i am bored and just not getting a return back in my investment here, but essentially yes. i ask ( Read more... )

..maybe this feels damn uncomfortable now, but in the grand scheme of things I will look back and see this was the best gift I could have possible received at this time. 

That's all I know, and I didn't just start feeling this way, today. It's the recent lack of feeling useful and proud and excited with myself of my tasks, and like I am running my own show. The freedom and independence that I feel- I know I am familiar, I have felt it before, when I was doing the most fulfilling my soul yearning to interact and feel ( Read more... )

Thanks for tuning in to this great weekly update of my personal endeavors. Here you will find me attempting to talk write and understand a cluster of feelings, hopes, doubts, highs and lows, love ,  balancing my health and for my personal development . I use these weekly updates as a constant in my life to ask myself basically , 'How are you doing ( Read more... )