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[alimagoo86]

"... Do you ever think about me? Do you ever cry yourself to sleep? In the middle of the night when you awake, are you calling out for me? Do you ever reminisce? I can't believe I'm acting like this. I know it's crazy ... how I still can feel your kiss. It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away. I miss you so much

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[caro72]

Allison, you're not the only one who feels pain. We all do, so don't think that we can't understand what you're going through. Even if we don't understand, we care and can at least listen to your troubles. And be there with some ice cream/chocolate/male strippers.

[caramel21]

I second the male strippers! All in favor?? (I hope that cheered you up Allison) But you know we all make mistakes.. and I know how you feel believe it or not. But.. eventually you'll see that everything happens for a reason. Oh and that part where you asked why we didn't stop you.. It's your life, you make your own decisions. Ask yourself this.. would you have listened to us anyway? We love you Allison.. don't get yourself down over this. Things will get better, I promise.

hold up..

[anonymous]

dearest Allie...I love you and will always love you...I will always be your bitch...don't ever forget that k?..but for the part "But then I tell myself, how did he feel when I did the same to him earlier this year? Why did I do it? Why did you guys LET ME do it?"...if I do remember correctly...we had many a conversations in the boat trying to talk you out of it...but you didn't listen..you had made your mind up..and stuck to it..listened to your heart and nothing or no-one else...I remember and admire you for that. you have such strength i could never posses. crap..i gtg...we'll talk about this some more tomorrow ok?
I LOVE MY ALLIE!

[daretodream21]

You aren't happy with your life. But you are the only one that can really change it. Now you have to figure out how you want to change it- and more importantly, how you are going to change it. And I side with Caroline- although we may not be going through the same kind of shit you're going through, we all go through shit. I've been through A LOT of it. So like she said, don't think we're incapable of understanding pain. We will all be here to at least try to help you through things, and at the very least just listen to you

[alimagoo86]

But you see, he wasn't an asshole when I was dating him. He had his moments, yeah, but we all do ... He's only been this way since we broke up. Even Hamilton noticed this. I'm pretty sure this isn't the 'real Wade', persay ... but it's what he's changed into. I'm afraid it's what I'VE changed him into.

[alimagoo86]

Thanks you guys. I guess I hit my low for the week, and hit it pretty damn hard. I know you guys are always there, it's just I hate really talking about my problems. I feel burdensome, like you guys really don't need to hear about my crap because, like you said, you all have yo're own crap to deal with. I just never expected all this to happen to me what with Emily and all ... I think that is what is bringing me down the most, the fact that I want to help her but she won't let me. Thanks again you all, maybe eventually I'll learn how to harness my emotions as the months pass by ... I love you all.