So i basiclly got kicked out of my school, i had a few panic attacks && cried for like 40598435034 hours. So im like alright, i REALLY need to get stoned, so i do, and i just leave my house. ughghghg, i am so fucked. Failing classes, shit at school--summerschool.
GREAT!
I am SO excited for this summer.I just have so much to do, my life is ( Read more... )

DICOTRAXX by Ladytron

Through mountains, through fields,
Under stars, over cornfields
You'll suffer over nights
And draw drawings over days,
You'll sleep till the noon.
The wind is shaking them down onto
the silver Mercedes (?).
You'll drink mountain tea from a golden samovar;
It gives them warmth with fiery tan.

(It's Bulgarian)

I spent the night at beckys last night, yay for getting fucked up and apssing out at like 4am in the morning. I woke up at 6, because i had to go home, and slept until about 4PM. My mom looked at edline, and is really mad, and keeps yelling. Then, i got caught smoking out of my window, ahhh, and my mom yelled at me! THEN, Justin and jessie came ( Read more... )

I got in a fight with my mom this morning, i called her a dumb bitch, oh well. She also caught me smoking today, its no biggie, i just enojoyed having her trust for a little while i guesss. Laura came over after school, i am glad me and her are getting so close. justin and jessie also stopped by. that was kinda like hell, it kills me to see him. ( Read more... )

To all the people in the world ( Read more... )

So much stuff has been happening lately, umm lets see, i found out people actually read this! So i cant write what i really really want, but anyways, i have been hanging out with Nicole;;Maddie;; becky lately. alot of Drama with that. Mr.Cowan has been tutoring me after school, which has been nice. I have been feeling so much pent up writing energy ( Read more... )

I had a really great night. I hung out with maddie, becky and Hallie, it was amazing. I am getting over Justin a tad, like when i hang out with my other really good friends that are GREAT it is amazing. i hope tommorow is even better!
I need some inspiration to write.
The smoke soaked into her viens, quickening her heart. Outside of the car, the ( Read more... )

6:29A boy with a rainbow pride belt walks past the dirty starbucks window. He walks hurridly, shaking long strands of unwahed brown hair out of his face. He glances down at the ground once, before rushing out of my visibility range. My Glasses are crooked, i fix them with care. Nobody likes anyone with crooked glassses, my mother once told me this ( Read more... )

These are the worst days of my life, i cant even express.
Panic attacks, crying fits, convulsions, nightmares, pills.
Welcome to my life, i ask myself each minuite, why am i still here?

i went to a newspaper conference today, it was ok. it was wierd between me and Emily though, i had to ride with her, and it was awkward, i almost got to see Becca, which made me smile. I got to smoke alot today, YAY FOR THAT. Ive been feeling kinda shitty lately, and i hafta do work, which makes it harder not to just fuck around and then go to ( Read more... )