[fic] Necessity - Yugioh, YYxY, angst, G, theme 11
Title: Necessity
Author: Chey (duelist_gurl163)
Theme: 11 - “I don’t love you because I need you; I need you because I love you.” for 50_lovequotes
Rating: G
Genre: angst
Parings: YamixYugi implied
Archive: You're lookin' at it
Warnings: None
Spoilers: The Japanese ep 52
Summary: In a moment of selfishness, Yugi wouldn't let him go.
Disclaimer: Wait, you mean it's not mine? Oh snap. *looks guilty*
Notes: Based vaguely on a conversation from the subs in episode 52. Obviously this isn't exactly what happened, but that's why it's called creative license. xD
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“You don’t even know who you are? Not even your name?” Yugi asked before he could stop himself.
“No…my memories are still a mystery to me.” He sighed. “It would be nice…a name.”
“Yeah.” But…what if the price…?
Across the room, his other self considered him. “Perhaps, if I go to Egypt…maybe there-”
“No…stop it, I don’t want to talk about this anymore.” Yugi shook his head violently. “Just…just forget I ever asked.” If you go to Egypt, if you discover your past, you might have to go away. That’s too much of a price.
Almost as if he’d read his mind, the spirit spoke up. “Aibou…if learning my past means I have to leave you, it’s okay if I never find it. I want to stay here.”
The gentleness of his voice was enough to break Yugi’s heart. He wanted to tell him he didn’t need to make that kind of sacrifice, but something selfish inside him wouldn’t let him say it. “You…you can have my memories,” he offered shakily. “You can have my name, I don’t mind sharing it.”
“Aibou…”
“I need you, mou hitori no boku. I don’t want you to go away.”
“But Aibou, you do not need me.” The spirit was confused. “It is I who needs you; without you, without the Puzzle, I would not exist-”
“There are other types of need!” Yugi burst out, before instantly going silent.
“What are you saying…?”
“I’m saying…I’m saying I realize that of the two of us, it is you who depends on me for existence. But…I need you…for a different reason.”
“Aibou, how many times must I tell you?” The spirit smiled at him kindly. “You’re strong on your own. You don’t need me to be a great duelist or person.”
“I’m not-” Yugi started to argue, then stopped. What would he gain by continuing? Better to let the spirit assume that he was talking about strength and dueling, than risk blurting out the truth that love was the reason he couldn’t let him go. So he forced a smile and replied, “Yes…I know, you’re right.”
Evidently under the impression that he’d cured Yugi’s fears, the spirit got to his feet and walked over, reaching for Yugi’s hands, in which he held the Puzzle. Despite that he was only a ghost, Yugi could feel him as he cupped his hands around Yugi’s. As always, the spirit’s misty skin was cold to the touch, but Yugi didn’t find it uncomfortable.
He chanced to look up at him, and found himself simply staring up into his eyes.
I know I’m selfish for not arguing, I know it’s wrong to encourage you not to go looking for your past when I can sense that you want to know it, but…
The coolness of his fingers resting over Yugi’s was, possibly, the greatest thing Yugi had ever felt. And he decided not to speak just yet, lest speaking entice the spirit to let go of him sooner, but even as he did he felt tears slide down his face. Deep down he knew their time was limited. If not speaking meant he could increase that time by even a few seconds, he gladly did so.
…I just…really need you.
x-x-x
Notes: Eh, I was completely out of inspiration. >.< This damn theme didn't want to be written at all, I swear. I think it attempted to boycott me. So I took an already-Puzzleshippy scene and made it Puzzleshippy-er. u_u It's like a fail-safe for when plotbunnies get ADD.
*uses scene-appropriate icon* xD;